YEAR ENDER REFLECTION

...mauna na ako sa pag post! :)

This will probably my longest Blog entry yet.

This year has been a very good one. I felt really blessed this year…so far..this is one of the most unforgettable year for me…as I look back I say to myself…all these things…happened to me…this year…

I was lucky enough to travel to different places this year, I went to galera twice this year…both occasion with my pugon friends…one was last may…ana was with us that time, WOW!!!..i feel honored…she was there…hahah! Ü Thank you Intel for the Thank you bonus early this year…I was able to go to boracay. I was in the land of paradise with Ali, Jerk, Allan, Trix and Jay. I wasn’t able to go to the other islands…maybe next time I’ll be able to go to those places. Fun in beaches…but after that…here comes my allergy…huhuhu…bad!!! The tops for my travel is mg Malysia travel, Thanks to our JIT for having the F2F in PG!...hahah! I was in Malaysia for about a week, I was able to visit the temples in Penang, and was able to swing by Kuala Lumpur on my last days and take tons of pix in KL Tower and Petronas Tower… Ü…I even managed to catch up with a good friend of mine, juli, hayyyyyyyy….its nice to see a familiar face in a foreign land. Me and Mommy was able to go back to Lucena…hehehe..may SM na sa Lucena…AYOS!

Career was good…very good this year. There were a lot of things that happened during the start of the year that I didn’t expect…at ALL!!!(ali you know…) but I took it…(Y!?!?!...y?!?!?...Y!?!?!) I was surprised…shocked and speechless…but I would like to believe that I worked hard for it and earned it…plus I know Ruth did a great job in positioning me…hehe…Good job Ruth…hahah. During the late Q2, we were having lots of issues with management…these were the days that we have the kapihan sessions with raf…hahaha…the starbucks kapihan…that tops it all…after that session, we had a meeting with all the “Senior” IEs…then we felt that we had to voice this out(or else we’ll just end up whining night after night)..and ask ourselves…”WHY IS ASSY LIMITER?!?!”...hahha! damn…left, right…left right…QUESTION!?!?..haha…all has been said and done…were just human, we do have our breaking points…we know the ending wasn’t good…there were no formal closure…there are still issues…but…I think its better what way…”hindi kasi lahat ng bagay may sagot, minsan mas maganda aminin nalang na nagkamali…mas madaling tanggapin at unawain at magpatawad”. Mid year, came Gib, finally, I can offload my tactical work..YEY! YEY! YEY!..BOOM! BOOM! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!...GYAT T GYATT GYATT!!!...whatever!!! this will be my downfall…for sure… L…then came Q4…suddenly I feel under loaded…hahaha…maybe I was used to the set up …that I do it all…hahaha…came end close was Pam and Mike. Tsk tsk tsk…more competition for focal…tsk tsk tsk… I just hope that I lived up to the expectation…speaking of…need to finish my focal write up…Hmmm…on the side…there once lived the Jona jona musikahan Band…it lasted for…what?!?!..hahah…oh well…change of priorities…(narinig ko nay an dati…shet!)…I managed to join another band…not sure if we’ll get anywhere…kopi just got a new job that requires him to work late nights…now…is there any gig during mornings?!?...tell me…tsk3!

This year, health was a so so … im getting worried with moms health… L… she is already taking too many medicines to take care of CTS. She doesn’t want to take the laser surgery, she’d rather take those medication rather undergo surgery. Daddy is still taking maintenance medicine for his blood pressure…shockingly same for vlads. L, now vlads is enrolled in fitness first (NGORSH NGORSH!!!). As for me…my morning sickness still keeps Tissue companies in business…heheh. But the hilite will be my Knee sprain…tsk tsk tsk…I almost cancelled my PG Trip cause of that..tsk tsk tsk. Now its been three months with no exercise…im still watching my knee…promise next year, I’ll get back to the gym and the badminton court…HAHAH!!! (lets see!!...hahaha!)

On friends and relationships…oh well..what can I say…early this year…they left…im talking about Nars and Park..tsk3!...Jan 27…need to replace the memories…They came…they left…together with the Christmas breeze…but I guess…that’s how life is..people come and go...but life goes on. Bambi went to Bahrain with Tita Lydia, but this guys came to my life… ali, jerk and juli...Oh, there was also the car pool memories…me, bambi, carlo and henry…bambi and henry resigned from intel..so there was me, ali , jay and Carlo, the set up didn’t worked out…WFH, Woke up late, 7 AM meeting…it didn’t last that long…it ended up that each one still drive their car… Its also nice to meet up with my JIT Partners…Josjua, Mark, Vernon, Compa Manrique, Master Goh….great guys! Ü!....hi mark…how was your vacation? Ü…oh oh oh…also…dennis…hahaha…great gut that I’ll miss for sure…together with the choco rolls and the 3pm translation 101’s Ü
I think one of the highlights during this year was…all of us were single…hahaha..believe me…it was reliving the night by night drinking sessions we had…hahah…Giligans made a fortune from us during those days…I even remember raf would follow after his MBA classes, still manage to stay for late night drinks even with BK reviews. Jowell…oh Jowell...those nights that he will do his monologues about dee…”Kasalan ko rin kung bakit ganun ang tingin niyo kay dee”…then here is ali and van…”Oh ali, van…SALO!”…tsk tsk tsk..pwede bang…”Oh kuya Jess…SALO!!!”…hahaha! And because of the night sessions…ali got grounded..yah..tsk3! that was a hard time for her…I still have her mms msg, after the night that Jowell and I called her up…she said...that was the first time that she smiled/laughed for a very long time…then she even thought of resigning or applying for a different position…but all ended up well…look at her…she is now the Conroe EI…YOU GO GIRL!!!...hahahaha! Ü Now there are no more night sessions with Raf, and Jowell. Raf is now one of the most sought after guy in Ateneo MBA…(who would’ve thought?!?!), Jowell got back with dee. (Good for you..mahal mo naman siya e! Ü) Now the night sessions are with Girlfriends in Big Brothers house and Drinking sessions in the Place to be…hahaha..To the wound that never heals…PU!@#$#!!!!...hahaha..yun lang! I miss Bowser…he is now in Riyadh…working his butt to earn money and what…he’ll come back to the Phils and…STUDY!!!...ang sipag ng batang ito…I admire him for his desire to learn… I miss bawa… L ..i miss our late night talks under the chico tree…I swear…I wont let daddy cut the chico tree…L…there we shared tons of laughs, tears and many many more. I miss having bawa around. L…I miss the way he can fill up any silence…good conversationalist kasi si bawa. I hope he is doing all good…where ever he is. Agie asked me…baka naman kami daw ang magkatuluyan ni bawa…I laughed hard…I don’t know…the thing bawa and I shared…I think this is what other people call…PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP?!?!?...basta..what i know..what we have…hanggang jan lang. Ü…kahit you catch us holding hands..hugging each other…that’s all to it…I guess..that is the bond you form with your childhood friends. Hmmm,,but how about Brian..hahah..do I really have to mention hum!?!?!...to summarize it…he was snaked by Poy, got back with Teen, got Teen pregnant, Got Married..and now…he’s a dad…”Saan na nga ba napunta ang panahon…San na nga ba?” …oh…saya diba?!?! Ü. There were a lot of revelations from people that surrounded me. Now I find solid comfort and advince from these ladies. Ali, Trix, Karen and Iam.(…next time kasama na si Arlene at kage sa girls night out!) Who would have thought that we will be close…!?!?!...now that’s fate…I know they are one SOLID back up…they will support me even when I am doubting myself…no more drunken nights…and they are one with me…calibrated muna lahat bago sumagot…hehehe! Then this maangas guy I saw in the yosihan…”ANG ANGAS NITO AH…pustahan tayo hindi ito tatgal ng anim na buwan sa intel…” hahah..those were the exact words I said to DJ…I was pertaining to hennesy…who would have thought…this guy would turn out to be one great guy…Drago nga lang....Tunay, wagas at dalisay…man of his word…hehehe. Momsie, Popsie and Vince…they gave me a 1-2 combo…I wont forget the night vince talked to me straight…now I was convinced…he was damn serious. Popsie…form time to time…I still hear your voice…”Makipag ….. ka na kasi!!!” and Momsies word of widom…”pag isipan mo muna…”. Oh, there is also Big borhters house…wahehehe…dinner chit chats with big brother, michelle, kage, ali and sometimes…kasmaa si erin. Ü… I also manage to meet up and still be in contact with old friends…pugon peeps still manage to have some get together…lady hens and I still meet…once in a blue moon…how we wish…wenny could be with us….hayyy….
To summarize it all…I gained a lot of new friends this year…in fairness…I lost two early this year…and Kuya jess replaced it…ten times fold…galing! Ü
Agie and I got back together last quarter this year…love is sweeter the second time around???....hmmm….i’ll borrow nerkaski’s drunken line….”Lets wait and see”... I hope and I pray that things will turn out good…hmmm…GREAT!...basta as I’ve said before…I’ll stick with the one who loves me…ika nga ni DJ…I have my own reason…same with me. Ü

Over all…this year has been a blast…seriously…Ü
Sobrang thank you Kuya jess …hindi mo ako pinabayaan…hinid mo ako pinapabayaan… Ü
Thanks to all the people who made a mark this year…I hope you guys will still be included for next years year end reflection. Ü
MORE POWER SAATING LAHAT!...haha! Ü


Biggest song of the year: Dreamers Lullaby by Paramita; Superstar by Jamelia; Sleeps with Butterflies by Tori Amos; I cant make you love me by Bonnie Rait; Mata by Mojofly; Ok na ako ngayon by Milk n Money;
Biggest Album of the Year: Tala by PAramita: Jagged Little Pill acoustic by Alanis Morisette; Ultamagnetic Jam by various artist…many more
Biggest movie of the year: hmmm…SKELETON KEY?!?!....hahahahahahahahahahah! Ü
Biggest Resto of the year: The Pizza Company ; Coutnryside (KAWNTRY SAYD!)
Biggest Recipe of the Year: Tuna Pasta c.o momsie
Biggest Boo-boo of the Year: Bring me…a …SOCKS! Ü…bosss penge ng Parmessan Cheese….hahaha!Ü!
Biggest event of the year: 1717/1718; Reggae Party; Bora Event; Frio Gig; Van goes to Hagerstown!; Thursday night club nights (…cheers to the cardinal!); January Celebrants Party
The biggest question of the year…Who would you choose…the one you love or the one who loves you…


HAPPY NEW DEAR EVERYBODY!!! Ü Ü Ü


HAHAHAH! Ü..yun lang! Ü

UNDER THE TABLE AND DREAMING...

Ali and i went to SM yesterday went out for some last minute shopping...long queue in the counters...last minute shopping for many people. We bought mug for Dennis, "BABY BOY".wahahah! :)...just replacing the broken mug. hahah!

then i invited ali to eat at pizza hut, and we had the laugh of our lives...have you seen cheese with pasta???...hahah..we did!!!...ayan kasi...ang takaw ko sa cheese...nakuha ko ang hinahanap ko...ahahah!♣--> tough luck!...steady lang! :)

then we went home...actually there were some "friends" inviting us to have some drinks...but nahhhh....we'd rather stay home...at ganun na nga ang nangyari...(no more drunken nights eh!!!)

BACKGROUND: No Letting go by Wayne Wonder. ayan mejo nag semi spa na kami ni ali...tsk3...buti nalang may kasama kaming tubig at iced tea...sige ali...tayo nalang ang mag inuman...wahaha...hayyy...so much an gnangyari...parang ang bilis lahat ng mga bagay bagay...Ü

...waaaaaaaaaaahhhh..ah basta..yun na yon...m looking forward for our Christmas party!Ü! Jakobs Bday and Gizies Wedding...wow hectic ang schedule..

Ang nakaraan...

Sorry mark...have to write this one down in my local linggo...i'll translate to you some other time...Ü

Hayyy...december na naman...akalain mo nga naman pala...isang taon na ang nakalipas...hahaha!!! sa amin ni jona...may isang common kaming naalala...minsan, nakaraan, mga isang taon ang nakalipas, may nakilala kaming mga bagong kaibigan na nagpaligaya saamin kahit nabutas nila ang aming mga bulsa at pinaluha kami sa aming pag iisa...ahahaha!...pero sa totoo lang napasaya naman nila kami...kahit papaano...malaking tulong yung dalwang mokong na yun para hindi ko masyado maramdaman ang break up namin dati ni agie...tsk tks tsk!...ok naman ang pagkakaibigan namin...taena..meron pa kaming nalalaman ni jona na..."Ang kay Van ay kay Van, ang kay Jona ay kay Jona"...wahahah...tapos yayakap itong si ali...Snooooooooooooooooooop....SHUGS!!!...ahahaha! (aLi, touchy ka...BWAHAHA!)...hahaha...happy memories naman e...yun nga lang...all that was left were memories...yun na lang...sad to think na hindi man lang tumagal yung "friendship"...nagkaroon ng change of plans...hahaha..wow, ngayon ko lang narinig ang ganung storyline...sanghilaw!!...ahaha...ngayon..hindi ko na nakikita ang sarili ko na sinsabi ang mga katagang..."Babalik din kayo sa mga kamay namin!!!"(with matching hand gestures!!!). Nakakatawa...nung thursday na nagsimba kami ni ali..instant flashback ng mga nangyari...hahaha!....san na nga ba napunta ang pagkakaibigan...tsk tsk tsk...oh well...steady lang naman..kasi kung may umalis...mmay mga dumating...ganun lang naman yun e...

Nagsimula ang lahat sa Zarkys, yun pala doon din magtatapos. tsk tsk tsk...in fairness...marami akong natutunan sakanila..."O ilan ito...?"..."Pupunta ako ng beach...magdadala ako ng..."..."Ito bang tissue holder?...ito bang Knorr seasoning???"...hahahah!!!...nagkaroon pa ng time na nagkasubukan ng talino...yung isa tuloy saamin...laging in deep thought..wahaha..si jerk ba may nasagot sa mga lateral question?...wahehe...

AYAYAYYY!!!...napakarami pang kanta na nagpapaalala...sa dinami dami ng kinanta namin sa el dorado...madami dami talagang kanta yun...pero iba pa rin ang...snnoooooOOOOOOooooooooPP!!!...ahahah..binilhan tuloy ako ni ali ng snoopy na stuff toy!...galing pa ng pamapanga!!!...wahahah!

hayyy...asan na nga ba?asan na nga ba kami ngayon...WALA NA!!!..change of plans daw...asus...kalokohan...ahahaha...oh well...hindi naman kelangan ipilit ang mga bagay bagay e...kung wala..e di wala...ika nga ni raf...KUNG AYAW MO WAG MO!...ahaha..pero ngayon...hindi ko alam kung masasbi ko pa na..."babalik din kayo...Maghihintay lang kami..."...

"...nakita ko nang lahat ito..pinahihiwatig ng mata mo...salamat na lamang saiyo..."

LSS ..again...

tsk3!...na-addict!!! :)

Just Take my Heart
Mr. Big

It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping
I can't imagine living my life after you're gone
Wondering why so many questions have no answers
I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong
Where is our yesterday
You and I could use it right now
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Here we are about to take the final step now
I just can't fool myself,
I know there's no turning back
Face to face it's been an endless conversation
But when the love is gone you're left with nothing but talk
I'd give my everythingIf only I could turn you around
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

latest song in my player...

From Narnia OST.

Waiting for the World to Fall
Jars of Clay

I'm afraid it's been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I've grown beyond the walls to where I've never been
And it's still winter in my wonderland

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don't ever change the shape of who I am to You

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I'm waiting



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ULTAMAGNETIC JAM

i finally got a copy!!! yey! yey! yey!..thanks to sodexho...hahaha! :)

it was a brave move by the organizers to get various artist from different genres..there was southborder, paolo santos , MYMP. I have read a lot of reviews regarding the CD...here is mine... :) .. DAPAT OBJECTIVE!!!...hahahah!

Alapaap by 6 cycle mind - fair rating for their rendition of the song...you'll find yourself stomping while listening to the song...and at the end...the touch of..."GUSTO MO BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..sumama!"

Magasin by Paolo Santos - "iba ang YONG tingin...iba na ang YONG ngiti.." hahah... oh well..style ni paolo santos yun e... :P...I find his voice to strong for this song...specailly the part..."Nakita sa isang magasin..at sobrang gulat...di ko napansin..BASTOS pala ang PAMAGAT... ... ... ..." The guitar effects was cool.

Spoliarium by Imago - Pagbagsak palang ng drums ni Zach sa simula... ay..bangis!!!...signature na niya ata yun...Aia...galing...you wont find the voice that singed Akap and taning in their version of spolarium...galing!!!...asteg...this is one of my favorites sa album... you'll find yourself whining with Aia..."aaahhhhhh...aaahhhhhh...ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... ewan ko at ewan natin...sinong may pakana...at bakit ba tumilapon ang spolarium jan sa paligod mo..."...mysterious yung dating ng kanta...galing!!! :)

Overdrive by Barbie Almabis - Barbie and her soft voice...same way that ely buendia did with the original version...sige...drive drive lang...PACHAL PACHAL!!! :)...biglang may...kwitis sa kanta...hahahah!!! Did she used synchronizer in the song??? I was looking for the second voice sa end part...not same with the old...kaya di ko napansin...hahaha...parang masyado nilang nilaro yung mga chord riffs nila pati yung drum pattern nila...PACHAL PACHAL nalang! :)

With a Smile by Southborder - I think the reason many people didnt like this version is that they were able to transform this alternative rock song to a beautiful RnB song. Honestly...maganda yung version nila...they did justice to the song...Ü...Jay Durias did a good job sa re-arrangement ng kanta...ang lalamig ng boses nila... "do-du-doooooooo....let me hear you singing...ITs no wonder love can make the world go...round and round and round and round..."...awwww....sarap patugtog sa background while you are consoling your depressed friend whatsoever to that effect...hahaha!Ü!

Tikman by Sugarfree - when i first heard the intro...i thought it was orange and lemons...hehehe...in my opinion, i think they could have picked Tinadahan ni Aling Nena instead...mas bagay sakanila...(bakit nga ba walang gumawa ng revision na yun?!?!Ü!). In fairness to sugarfree...they gave the song more body ika nga nila...para siyang conditioner sa buhok na nagdagdag ng extra shine at extra dulas sa buhok...hahahahah...Ü...listen to the last 2-3 chorus...it was so sugerfree...pero maganda ang lapat sa kanta...Ü...ayos! :)!...mahusay din talaga ang boses ni ebe...PANDAY NA!!!!..hahaha!Ü!

Ligaya by Kitchie Nadal - obviously, it sounded like madonna, kasi may synchronizer na ginamit...sayang...im curious how kitchie's real husky rock voice match this song...sabay tawa pa...ay mali..Giggle...hahaha...parang bedroom voice ang voice ni kitchie...hahaha..samantala sa original...ely is somehow belting his vocal chords sa kantang ito..parang si ely..."LIIIIIGAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!"...sana wala nalang synchronizer...Ü...pero saya...ang saya pakinggan nung baseline...naalala ko si kopi...Sayang din the chuwariwap part/effect wasnt there...cute pa man din nun...sana chuwariwap nalang kesa giggle effect...hahaha!Ü!

Torpedo by Isha- honestly...this is hte most off song sa buong album...hmmm...bukod sa hard to believe...pero wala pa tayo dun...mamaya na yun..(hahaha!!!)...she could have chose a different song...maybe Punk Zappa???..hahahah...kiddin...parang naging opera kasi ang dating nung piano niya and her voice is quite malambing for the song...e parang iritado nga yung tema nung kanta diba???..parang hindi e...so parang you wont believe her na naiirita na siya kasi ang lambing ng boses niya...hahaha!Ü

Superproxy by Francis M - with or without ely buendias participation...his version is way coooooool!...feel na feel mo sabayan yung part na... "sawa ka na ba, sa mga hustle ng buhay mo..."...Francis M...walang kakupas kupas...Rock and Rap in one song...HOT pare!!!Ü! Yun nga lang...theres no substitue for the real thing.haha

Huwag kang matakot by Orange n Lemons - too much Tangy...too much lemony :( ...oh well they did it their way... :)...pero ok yung part na siningit nila yung lyrics ng Tikman...hehehe.

Pare ko by Sponge Cola - with all due respect to sponge and all their hits...i got disappointed with their version of Pare ko...I think i'll still choose to hear their old mono version...kahit tunog lata lang... My initial reaction when i heard their version..."Ay di ko nafeel yung pare ko na feeling..."...hindi siya yung tipo ng version na gusto niyo pakinggan magkakaibigan...all drunk and heartbroken...then sabay sabay..."...diba...tangena..."...hmmmm...di ko ma-explain...pakinggan niyo lang...then you'll know what i mean...medyo nadisturb lang din ako the way yael said..."wooooo...ooohhhhh..."...oh oh oh! and one one thing...hinanap namin ni ali yung part na..."Dehins ako naniwala..." na second voice..hahah...Parang naging masyadong mabigat yung kanta...di tulad ng dati... :...siguro its the way na rin nakinanta ni yael...ewan..parang ganung...waheheh!..."Kailangan tanggapi-hin"...parang ganun...=p...pero ganda rin..nilaro nila yung mga riffs at drums...heheh...

Huwag mo nang itanong by MYMP- Juris...i really admire her voice...crystal clear!!! pang pakalma ang kantang ito...steady lang!Ü!

eto na....eto na...eto na....ahahahahahaha!!!!!

Hard to Believe by Cueshe - They didnt changed the arrangement that much..halos same lang...when i was listening to the song...i remembered eheads fruitcake album... :)...i fond it hard to believe...bakit sila...hahaha!!! I used to like this song very much before sa Sticker Happy album nila...it was too much of the Alex Band effect...parang nasusuka nalang ako habang napapkinggan ko sila na kinakanta...i could imagine their tonsils wiggling wiggling while they are trying to reach those mailto:notes...hahaha...!@$$#$&^%#!@^%%#!@%!$#^@%#!$%!$#%#!$^%!$#^$^!#%!$^^$#....hahaha....Its so hard to believe nga!!! hahahahah!

Alcohol by Radio Active Sago Project - Nobody can do this rendition except for Radio Active Sago... the sax was goooooooooooooooooooooodddddd....sabayan mo pa ng nilalarong gitara...GALENG!!!...sabay..drum rollsss......SHET!!!...PUTANG INA....hahahaha!!!... if you want to vent out some ...si kiko maching...nasa dulo ng kanta...ALCOHOL...ALCOHOL!!!

Maling Akala by Brownman Revival - their version is good...sana nga lang...nasabay siya ilabas together with the other songs in the album...ang labas tuloy...medyo..sawa na yung tao...hehehe...


Ang Huling El Bimbo by Rico J. Puno - as posted in other reviews...whoever thought that Rico J do the revival of this song is a genius... TRUE!!!...as if this song was his very own. Sakanya yung original at eheads ang gumawa ng revival. hehehe...Yung pa-paos paos effect worked well for the song. "Naninigassss ang aking katawan..."...yiheeee....mapapsayaw ka talga...ok fine..in my case...sway sway lang muna...hahahahah!Ü!

OVERALL, the album is good buy...hmmm...must buy...i swear...marami nang susunod na same format...tribute album...hehehe...Congratulations to all the artist who dared to dot heir own versions...pero iba pa rin talga yung original...kahit tunog mono at tunog lata lang...iba pa rin yung dating...

Long live Eheads...salamat sa musiko na dinala niyo sa buhay ng bawat Pilipino...Ü

Complicated no more...

Hi Mark, finally, i can say its no longer complicated...read on buddy... :)

My dear friends...this is it...AS IN!!! i know some of you have already said their piece and it took a long time for me to do it...but here it is...this is it...I know i have been laying back on how things are happening...but let us get things straight already. as i have said in my previous blog...

"i go for the one who loves me...call me selfish..fine...but thats how i feel. I think i got burned with Brian before. 5 years .... 5 long years...then broken by the shocking love team. I think that is what changed my mindset. I have loved brian before unconditionally...i never even thought i could love someone like that (specially during my age way then). Now, i have no doubt with my decision. I know i made the right decision. I know the man i chose will be there for me and will care for me no matter what...i know i can experience and i can get unconditional love with him. With all these, i know im in good hands...walang panghihinayang...Ü. The "what ifs" are now over ruled by facts that im seeing right now...basta ang alam ko...dito sigurado ako...unlike sa iba...baka talo lang talaga ako!"

I think ito na talaga....I know... i know...if i still choose to play this game...i'll end up loosing it... i dont want to hurt anyone, i dont want to be nobodys meantime girl, if its meant to be...then let it be...as also what raf said..i might lose both...tsk tsk tsk...BAD!!!

so no more teasing...no more gud am dear...no more gudnyt dear...no more drunken nights...

STATUS: In a relationship!!! yes!!! :)

...thanks to my friends who kept reminding me on where i stand.