Fragmented

moments...

2006-11-21T18:09:00.000+08:00

Everybody had their moments in this familiar place...moments wherein we want to scream and say..."Enough...i'm tired..."...those moments we let those tears run down...and hide from the world...yah...we all had these moments...where we say.."Im done..." and then change our mind"...Lord...give me the strength..."

...yes kuya jess...give us strength...

...thy will be done...

amen.

johari window

2006-11-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

cheerful, friendly, loving, sentimental

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

adaptable, bold, brave, caring, complex, confident, dependable, dignified, energetic, extroverted, giving, happy, helpful, independent, intelligent, mature, proud, relaxed, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, shy, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

observant, religious

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, accepting, calm, clever, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, modest, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, reflective, responsive, silly, sympathetic, tense, wise

Dominant Traits

61% of people agree that atevanvan is cheerful
76% of people agree that atevanvan is friendly

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (23%) bold (7%) brave (7%) calm (0%) caring (38%) cheerful (61%) clever (0%) complex (7%) confident (15%) dependable (30%) dignified (7%) energetic (46%) extroverted (23%) friendly (76%) giving (7%) happy (23%) helpful (15%) idealistic (0%) independent (7%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (7%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (23%) mature (7%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (7%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (7%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (15%) self-assertive (15%) self-conscious (7%) sensible (7%) sentimental (15%) shy (7%) silly (0%) spontaneous (15%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (7%) warm (15%) wise (0%) witty (15%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 1.11.2006, using data from 13 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view'>http://kevan.org/johari?view=atevanvan">view atevanvan's full data.

Monday Sadness...

2006-10-23T12:11:00.000+08:00

minsan na nga lang ako mag blog ito pa ang laman...

I bought 3 shirts from Oto Roboto last Friday…I was excited it coz I bought it for me and my housemates…beside getting it for a discounted price. “M” placed the shirts on the the bottom drawer of my MPD before going home. Roboto went back to me early this morning to replace the defective shirt…to my surprise…there were no shirts on the bottom drawer…none…now who stole the shirts???

…to you…who stole the shirts…you ruined my Monday…I hope you use the shirts in good use…it was intended as gifts for my friends…I hope you do the same.

hayyyyy...saddddd....saddddd....

dalawampung tanong, dalawampung sagot

2006-09-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

1. How often do you blog? Hahaha….(malamang tumatawa na si jay ngayon!!!)…its depends... Ü
2. Online Alias: hehehe…atevanvan…atevanvan rules!!!!
3. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew? Ay oo…hahaha…paki-elamera!!!
4. What do you do most often when you are bored? Watch TV, listen to music, play guitar…pick my nose?....harharhar!
5. When bathing, which do you wash first? Hmmm…Mag Shampoo muna… Ü …I use Palmolive Aroma therapy…hehehe…
6. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? OH YESSSSSS!!!....college days! Ü
7. What color looks best on you? Fenk?... natural color ko yun e…harharhar!....Black I guess…makes me look slim Ü
8. What is your favorite alcoholic drink? Hmmm…kahit anong hard! Ü…Smirnoff…Ü …Gran Matador…nyahahaha…walang tama kinabukasan!
9. Do you believe in heaven and hell as a real place that each of us will go to after death? Yes.
10. Do you find that you have more online friends than offline friends? no
11. What was your favorite subject in school? Electronics…hmmm…Fonweld…hahaha…basta turo ni Mark,Phyllis, Edge at Grace! Ü
12. Are you a perfectionist? basta tama!
13. Do you spend more than you can afford? Hmmm…I try not to…
14. Is it better to have loved and lost than never to have love before? Panalo ito…ang sagot ko…isang malaking…YES!!!!
15. Do you consider yourself creative? I think so!!!
16. Do you give yourself the credit you deserve? Shempre naman…sino pa ba ang magbubuhat ng bangko ko kundi sarili ko lang din diba?
17. Do you donate time or money to charities? Yes
18. Have you recently done something that you've criticized others for doing? AY!!!! OO!!!
19. What's on your mind? B.a.m.b.o.l.y.a.s!....hahaha…miss ko na sila!
20. Say one nice thing about the person who tagged you and the five people that you are going to tag. Si kukote…ewan…sa lima...bahala na kung isno ang sasagot! Ü

HAGERSTOWN...after 1

2006-09-14T11:50:00.000+08:00

Akalain mo nga naman...isang taon na pala ang nakalipas...napakabilils talaga ng panahon...

...hahaha...mantakin niyo ...isang taon na nung matulog kami sa microtel ...harharhar!...hayyyy...memories....howell...madami pa...anjan na yung mga late night na usapan...tapos...nirerecord pala ni jonaaaaa..hahaha...oh...shempre pa....ang mga pawis moments....ang paglilinis ng bahay....lalo na ang aking therapy session na paglilinis ng banyo...(paglinisin niyo na ako ng banyo...wag niyo lang ako paghugasin...hahaha!)hmmm...nababanggit na rin ang linis ng bahay...sino ang makakalimot...sa aming mga hinagpis sa paglilinis ng pinatay na ref...(nadudulas tuloy ako sa sm dahil jan...harharhar!)...oh memories...dumating si erin sa bahay ni kuya...pero sa ibang kwarto siya nangupahan...andun din yung enkwento namin sa mga kapitbahay...napatunayan namin...basurang itinapon mo...babalik rin saiyo...harharhar!

dumating din si ate kage sa bahy ni kuya...yey...lumipat na kami ni jona sa taas...naks...kaming tatlo na yung nag sa-salo salo sa taas na kwart...hindi lang yan ang mga salo salo moments sa bahay namin...anjan rin yung mga pwede nating matawag na mainstay ng Hagerstown...yung mga tao ng Frederick, Fairfax at New Bedford...nagkaroon ng panahon na salo salo kami kung kumain ng gabihan(minsan kasama pa namin si big brother at michelle)...salamat sa mga ulam na nadadala namin ni jona...(panalo talaga yung dala ni ate kage nung piyesta...ang tagal ng inabot nung mga ulam na yon...)...minsan nga lang...sa kasawiang palad...may mga ulam na nakakalimuta...natitira...at tinutubuan ng amag sa ref...pag nangangamoy na ang ref...ayan na si jona...siya na ang maglilinis niyan...hehehe(aba si ate kage nalang pala ang walang toka ah....harhar...ay alam ko na...siya yung nagtatanggal nung mga buhok na naiipon sa strainer...hahaha!)...siyempre ang bahay ni kuya rin ang nagsilbing lugar para sa mga inuman sessions kasama ang mga IE folks...(hahaha...pops/moms/ali...naalala niyo ba ito..."NAGKAMALI ATA AKO NG TERM"...hahah!tanggal tama!!!)isama na rin natin ang mga di mabilang na poker nights na naganap sa bahay na ito...:)

...ng mga panahon na madalas ang poker nights sa bahay ni kuya...lumaki ang bill namin...heheh...at naging sugarol kami..."ISIPIN NALANG NATIN NAG STARBUCKS TAYO!!!"...hahaha! :)...Saksi rin ang bahay ni kuya kung pano kami nahumaling sa American Idol...isipin niyo...bumili pa kami ng TV namin para makanood kami sa kwarto...(so i guess jona/kage...kung alis na tayo sa dorm di na natin kelangan pag awayan kung sinoa ng kukuha nung TV...kasi mejo shonga na siya..hahah!) tapos...anjan din yung Extreme Makeover...gaganda nga naman ng mga bahay...coolness...astegggg...at sige..aaminin na rin namin...napapngiti at napapahalakhak kami sa mga koreanovela na pinapanood namin...

Marami ang naiinggit sa bahay namin...kasi malaki...nakatiles...(di katulad ng iba jan...naka DnG or Coach na linoleoum!...hahaha...joke fairfax kids!)...at higit sa lahat mag WiFi kami...wahehehe...salamat kay ate kage...nakuha niya...plus may router pa...panalo talaga itong si ate kage...:)

Dito rin sa bahay ni kuya...nasaksihan ang paglaki namin ni jona...ewan ko nga ba...siguro dahil hindi na kami napapgod sa pag uwian...hahaha....hahahahah..sagad...tuamba nga talaga kami...anjan na rin ang mga 30 mins(daw!) na bath time ko...hahah!mga late night tulog namin(dahil nag t-trabaho...at....nagt-trabaho pa rin!!!...haha!)

Pero hindi lang naman sa loob ng bahay ni kuya nakapaligid ang mga alaala ng isang taong paglagi namin dito...(marami jan lang sa labas ng bahay...jan sa may gate...wala kasi kaming upuan sa labas...project pa rin namin ang magkaroon ng duyan sa labas....STAR GAZING!!). Marami jan yung sa Fairfax...at meron din sa New Bedford(nag iisa pero kakaiba!!!..hahah!

hayyyy...isang taon na ang nakalipas...sana mas marami pa...(sana babaan ang renta namin!)

OLA!

2006-08-28T10:34:00.000+08:00

Oo...para sa mga sumusubaybay ng blog ko...Oo...buhay pa siya...abangan niyo na lang...pag natapos ko na ang mga naka drafts...Flood na...hahah...:)

Forget regret or life is yours to miss

2006-06-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

Before is start this entry…I would like to greet a dear friend of mine…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAY FERNANDO!!!! ÜÜÜ…we miss you back here! Ü

Oh well…where was i…hmmm….i know I have been silent in the blogging arena for a very very long time. Much has happened…in work, with my friends…my family…i guess the past episodes in my life…hmmm..lets say…id rather keep it to myself…instead…I would like to list the things that I am thankful for...
(just finished watching Rent…that’s why im in this mood…I soooo love Angel…she truly is an angel…how she touched the hearts of every person in the play/film)

Dear Kuya Jess…
Thank you for the gift of life you gave me…im lucky that I wake upo each morning and enjoy all your gifts around me.

Thank you for my mom, dad and kuya …thank you for my mom that keeps me nagging to loose weight yet still prepares me uber delicious food. To my dad who always call me when im out and always joke around that I am the most beautiful border in the house…and is still willing to give me a ride whenver im out…to my brother…how your fart brings joyful moments when we are together…hahah…bahoooooo…I pray that you give them good health…long life and safety everyday…I know I often neglect how lucky I am to have this family…were not perfect…but this bunch is just right for me…thank you for supporting me in everything that I pursue…be it sports, music, name it…myma….dyda…vlads…I love you (not yet including ngorshy here…ok?!?!?!...)

Thank you for my relatives…thank you for the criticism you give…thank you for all the unsolicited advices you gave me…to some of you who stabbed me in the back…thank you…I believe in karma and I believe in Ginebra San Miguel…BILOG ANG MUNDO… Ü…so for all the nasty and sour things you once said…you are forgiven and thank you for making me stronger and tougher in taking all the blows…

Thank you for my work…amidst all the crap that I hear from my boss and the management…I still have this descent job that help me live a descent life. And to whatever is facing me Kuya jess…I know…and I believe….you got me to this…you’ll get me thru this…I believe that this is all part of your masterplan…and im taking the challenge…just walk with me…walk with all of us as we go to office everyday…and remind us how lucky we are we are working not in uniform, fully comfortable seats…aircon facility…and crappy meals in the canteen… Ü…thank you for the salary that I get that funds my leisures…be it buying clothes, latest cds…food, playing poker that makes my life fun! Ü

Thank you for my friends…those whom ive known for so long…my childhood friends…you are the ones that I miss the most…I miss the times we play basketball in our uniforms…highschool teammates…I miss the day when we holler…BEDANSSSS ROAAARRRR!!!HS batchmates…NO RULES NO LIMITS…FA_I_GA_HA_TA!!!...College buds…I miss the days when we drink “Pink” in agno house…I miss the people whom are of great influence in my life. To the people who made an impact to my life…thank you for passing by…you know who you are…to the people I am sharing my everyday today…I hope that you will stay forever…

Thank you for the music I enjoy so much…thank you for the melodies and the words that comforts my everyday…

Thank you for my senses that makes me feel…hear…see…touch and smell…what life is to offer! Ü

So many more things to thank about… Ü

Kuya Jess…thank you…I am blessed! Ü

car wash-itunes-mami

2006-06-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

late afternoon was spent with dencio...intial plan is to accompany him sa car wash then go home to hagarstown, have dinner and call it quits...but the moon and stars had some other plan...

we went ahead on the first itenerary....car wash...check...XNX got his much awaited cleaning...squeeky clean...one advantage in keeping your car clean, you can can check if ever there are any new scratches on your ride...hahaha...dencio learned that there is a new one...now...who did that...we dont know....maybe her sister...nyahaha...
we then decided to get early dinner in KFC and i ran some errand for trix...dropped in fairfax for the dinner, and met JLo.
It was a nice catch up time from dencio...so many things happened...

so it happened...
From car wash to music to late night mami snack…From Madel to McDeary to Jeed…hahah! Ü

What struck me most…nung sinabi mo…”palagay mo ba worth it siya…”…hindi naman ako nakasagot saiyo…
…you shook your head and said…”not worth it”…

...i think mas may impact because you said it…you…you who have known him for the longest time…you whom who have seen all the mischiefs and the greats of McDeary. Tapos…after reading the book treksi gave me…ay…He really is just not into me…hahaha! Ü

...for all the what ifs that are saved in the “McDeary folder” in my heart and mind…I would like to delete it…permanently…click shift delete.
I see no point in keeping it in my memory drive…im not saying that it was a waste of space/time…whatsoever…but…every time I ask myself…”Is he worth it…”… =( …that proves it all…
…no more late night online for me…stop na muna…
…kaya ali….dont leave on ww28…ÜÜÜ ...the king will be back!!!

…McDeary was able to do it…so y cant i…hahaha…ayos ba sa motivational factor?...hahah…wala e…ganon talaga…
Ill just embrace single hood…with arms wide open…
AYOS LANG…single naman din ang mga kaibigan ko..what the heck…sama-sama na muna kami…bwahahah! Ü

So anybody…would you light my candle???

quick one

2006-06-01T08:32:00.000+08:00

to whom much is given...much is expected.

--> tita "L", you know what, your kiddo texted me...she was asking for some money...later...i realized, i said yes to her...without thinking, not even asking why she needed the money, what for, when will you pay...i just said yes and asked her where i need to deposit the money. tawag jan...tulong...bukal sa loob, so next time...please dont give us the lines..."Di na ako magpapatumpik tumpik pa..."...kasi sa totoo lang...masakit yun...pera lang naman yan e...Christian ka pa man din...tsk tsk tsk...

-->McDeary...should i coat you with sesame seads, coconut and sugar...then eat you for meryenda...naman!!!

-->Maturity people...maturity...all i can say..been there...done that...whats with all the issues little puppies?!?!

--> Coalition will be back next season...watch out...Ü

-->Easter...your loosing your shine...tsk tsk tsk...

...hahaha...i miss my long blogs... :P

Slippery when wet

2006-05-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Manic Monday…Hmmmm..understatement…sum kind of a Monday…sticking to my story…I texted rhaleigh and mike that I will be EL for today…to fix some roof job near my room due to typhoon caloy…so its done, jona picked me up in my house around 12 noon…then passed by our dorm to drop the “ulam”…but low and behold…ito kelangan tagalog na ang sulat ko para mas feel na feel ko…nak ng...ang ganda nga naman ng lunes mo…. @#$%&!!!!!... nasapawan ko si jona sa init ng ulo…siya yung tahimik ako ang madada!!! Pinatay ni papa yung saksak ng ref…so imagine niyo nalang diba…I think pwede isama ito sa mga misadventure blogs ni treksi…hayayayyyyy….Ü…so ano nga ba ang pwedeng mangyari pag pintay mo ang saksak ng ref…una…matutunaw ang yelo sa ref na magbubunsod ng pag overflow ng tubig sa ref na magiging dahilan ng pagbaha sa paligid ng ref. pangalawa… dahilan sa walang lamig…na defeat na niya ang purpose na ref siya…in short…nasira yung mga ulam na nasa ref…hang saya saya!!! Dapat papasok na kami ni jona…napagpasyahan naming na ituloy na ang pag file ng EL…para ayusin ang bahay…tindi talaga…tindi…sagad to the max…siguro dahil carry over ito ng pagka bad trip namin nung Friday…dahil narat-rat kami ni jona sa pag ayos ng gamit namin kasi supposed to be nga mag fumigate sila papa sa bahay nung Saturday na hindi natuloy…hayyyyyyyy…ang saya diba?Ü?waaaaaaahhhhhh….so sige…fine..naayos na namin ni jona…buti nalang ayos na ang router…kaya nakapag connect kami ni jona…

Sumama kami kela trix papuntang sm…bibili kami ng extension chord at garbage bag para sa bahay…bumili na rin ako ng silver shoes dahil mejo masikip na yung luma ko…yey…700 peysows…oks na…maganda naman yung nabili ko…fits my malapad feet well!so uwian blues na…pababa na kami ng stair papunta ng parking..woops…mejo muntik na ako madulas dun ah…sige lakad lang ang beauty ko going to the parking…ok last two steeeeeeeewwwwwweeeeeeeeepsss..ARAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!..blag… nadulas ako mga kapatid…umpf!!...speechless na si jona at si Trixy at allan…josko…ano nga ba ang nangyari…huwaaaaaaaaaaa..sinuswerte ka nga naman…tsk tsk tsk!...ayan…may pasa ako sa may siko sa left arm, masakait ang balakang ko…at masakit ang likod ko…feeling ko nalamog…hayayayyy…Y?!?!? o Y?!?!?!?

So tell me…minamalas nga ba ako?!?! Aggh!

…pero nginitian pa rin ako ni Lord…bukod sa napakasarap na tawa na nakuha ko sa balita ni momsie…(habang siya ay nag ma-mala CSI agent)…may nag IM saakin…it was enough reason for me to smile before I sleep…and just enough reason to miss him…more?! (sabi ko naman kasi sayo e…wag ka na bumalik…ok na ako e…)

w18 recap

2006-05-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

18.2 we played Frisbee. Ü Totally different from the first time we played…TOTALLY! Read on DJs blog kung gusto niyo malaman yung details… Pero all in all…whew…talk about burning calories…BIG TIME. Actually…kinakapos ako sa hininga…I must admit…yang pag yoyosi nay an e malaki ang naging impact…tsk tsk tsk… When I was still training in higshcool…chicken ang 5 rounds straight jogging…sprint ang 6th round…ngayon…deyna…panuorin ko nalang tumakbo si raf! Ü Kelangan ko ipractice ang aking catching skills at ang aking forehand…its easy to do disc catching pag steady lang kayo..pero pag mabilis na ang tibok ng puso mo..hyper adrenalin rush…call it whatever…wala…mahirap na…pulso… Forehand…ahahaha..actually…dahil na rin ata sa taranta…napapaforehand ako…as if nagtatapon lang ako ng bola…hahaha Ü …to add on the calorie burning Frisbee activity…I ran 2 rounds sa oval…~800m…pwede na! Ü Whats for dinner? Ali & I prepared buttered vegetable. Thanks to jerk for the turbo chicken…watching the calorie intake Ü Came sleeping time…hindi pa rin ako inaantok…huwaaaaaaaaa….nakakainis!!! :( WIPER WIPER WIPER! Ü

18.3 Coalition vs. CV CNO Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa…hahahaha..bad trip…wahahah…as in major!kainis!!! Ü Wahahahahaha…ah basta huwahahahah..BAD TRIP!!!! In short we lost…pero ito nalang ang iniisip ko…last year…we didnt won sa Flash not until we met sa finals…oh diba? Ü…lets see and hope that history repeats itself Ü After the game, its time to do some treadmill…yeah…250 calories…yehesss mam!!!! Ü After treadmill, me and trits decided to do the grind…we followed the steps…and honeslty…pinagpawisan din naman ako… Ü…fave move ko yung grapevine and yung isa…hmmm…bump ata yung title nun…pinaka ayaw ko box step at yung may pump move…hahaha..ang bilis kasi…nawawala ako sa steps… Ü…more practice more practice… Ü After that… Came dinner…josko…calorie conscious ang mga kasama mo…which is good for me atleast nadadala nila ako…ehehehe.. Ü…we ate afritada…trits…nag t-tyaga siya sa Century tuna niya…na sabi niya walang lasa…hahaha… Ü…ay…we also ate papaya…thanks to tita jenny… Ü Kage and I watched AI…hahaha..we enjoyed it a lot…lalo na sa pangchachaka naming sa pagsasalita ni Paris…wahehehe Ü…sayang wala si ali…malamang mas maingay kami kung andun siya. Ü Sleeping time…waaaaaaaaaah…..i yawned and turn…still…hindi pa rin ako inantok… Ü…. …opened my eyes today…and in knew theres something different… Kanta kanta na lang sa utak Ü Ü Ü Oh oh oh…and i think different blog nalang ito…we had group in one with ria…la lang…parang napaisip ako…mature na nga ba ako sa org na ito…WAHAHAH..the “M” word!!! Ü Ay oo nga pala…got mail from wenny…nice to hear from “the kid”…weird though…I was about to send her a mail…naunahan lang niya ako…hahaha J…may tawag jan sa ganyan e…ano nga bay un?!?! J
18.4 Badminton Practice Yehes…i finally put my upgraded racket to test… Ü…yihaaaaa…actually…mas maganda na nga yung tunog niya… Ü pati yung palo…asteg…pero mejo bumigat siya dahil sa grip…huwahahah..pero ok lang…si linver ginagaya yung pag taas ng paa ko..hahaha.natawa talaga ko…hahahah…i cant concentrate…hahaha…gagayahin ko talaga yung tip toe service niya...BABAWI ako!!!waahahahahahahah… Ü…siguro dahil mejo pagod na rin ako…hindi na ako masyado humahabol ng bola..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa…tsk tsk tsk…pagod na si atevanvan…heheheh…sabi ni linver…nag improve na raw yung smash ko…yehesss…hindi ko lang alam kung nagasasabi siya ng totoo or bumabawi siya sa pang-gagaya sakin…hahaha..kasi sabi nga niya…28 y.o lang siya e…hahah..teka…check ko yung genie later…pag totoong 28 lang siya…ibig sabihin nagsasabi siya ng totoo…HAHAHAH! Ü Dinner time! We had visitors sa house…the usual faifax boys…(in short…mga palamunin…hahah..joke lang…its always fun to have them around…at least may taga hugas din Ü….hahahah!) had rice for dinner though…parang natakam ako dun sa chicken…plus ulam namin yung ginataang beef…uber!!!...fave talaga!!! Ü sarap talaga mag luto ni tita jenny! Ü…wala lang talaga ako tyaga lutuin yun kasi you have to keep stirring para hindi mag buo yung gata…kapagod sa braso (…hahaha..ito nirereklamo ko e parang ganun din ang nararamdaman ko sa badminton…wahehehe..whatever!!!). Then we had some short chitchat…and decided to call up bambilog and greet her ADVANCE happy birthday(gagi kasi itong si allan…may 4 palang naman!)… Ü…hehhe..miss that girl…I use to spend 24/7 days with her…ngayon…nasa Bahrain na siya…nag mimina ng langis…hahaha..joke! Ü at dahil sa aming conversation…nabalik ang ala-ala ng Giligans/Zarkys/Studio nights…wahahaha..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA…as in…kahit papaano pa rin talaga…there were gooooood memories na pwede balikan…(meron isang malaking boulder…do the hand movement!!!) Ü…

(.........hahahaha"IN DEEP THOUGHT!!!")

…hahahah...tom arrived sa Hagerstown late…galing sa GF niya…nag juts…hahaha… PARALLEL THINKING QUESTIONS! Ü…Tom…bright kid(kahit dark ang color niya)…nasagot niya yung mga tanong…asteg…si dencio nasagot niya yung isang parallel thinking na question…si torres…ewan…mukha siyang jack bauer…nasobrahan sa panunuod ng 24!...hahaha! Ü…hahahahahahaha…PWEDE MAGTANONG!!! Ü…hahahahaha…then we ended the night while the cats are just starting to heat the place up….hahha…si torres natakot…nagood time ni ali…wahahah!!! :P
And come bed time…yehessss…di ako nahirapan matulog…I think napagod nalang din talga ako sa week na ito…hahaha

à umiyak si tita trits…tsk tsk tsk…pero lumarga pa rin siya sa paglandi niya..wahahaha Ü
à yey, tanggal na si paris! Ü

As you can see naman puro WLE ang nilagay ko dito…wahaha..sige careerin na ang pagpapayat… Ü

Xs:
I miss bawa, brian, minik (cant see meeeeee!!!), javjav, aunte merlie, levs, kessa, marites, ward, wenny, starbucks coffee, GA, my old cds, cheesecake…waaaaaaah….Ü

…kuya jess…thanks for this exciting week…anuman ang nangyari this week…I believe na this is your plan…maraming salamat po…Ü…amen

ahumf....Ü

2006-05-04T08:20:00.000+08:00

Opened my eyes today And I knew there's something different Saw you in a brand new way Like the clouds had somehow lifted And if yesterday I heard Myself saying these words I would swear it was a lie I don't know why but suddenly I'm falling Was I so blind I was loving you all the time Now I'm hopelessly addicted Helplessly attracted I'll make a wish this day And I'll send it to the heavens That we will always stay Entwined like this forever And though the world may change Coz nothing stays the same I know will survive I don't know why but suddenly I'm falling Was I so blind I was loving you all the time Now I'm hopelessly addicted Helplessly attracted Naturally we acted Hopelessly addicted Helplessly attracted Chemically reacted Naturally we acted

House M.D.

2006-05-02T09:32:00.000+08:00

I have this new line from HOUSE M.D

“I loved him until I figured out that it hurts a lot less to just not care…no disappointments” - Dr. Robert Chase

True…kasi why do we get hurt/disappointed nga ba???...kasi we expect more sa mga tao na mahal natin…tsk tsk tsk…ay wait…mas maganda ata ang…tsith tsith tsith…(HAHA!)

Actually…there are lesser McDeary thoughts these past few days…weeks…hmm…I think the only time I got to be back sa McDeary land is last Tuesday. Teynks to Tita Trits…wahehehe…pero yun nalang…Siguro the reason na rin…nagiging busy ako…sa work…extra curricular activities…nasabi ko nalang sa sarili ko…(yukkk!!! Serious bloh…hahah!)…ang saya saya ng buhay…bakit ba ako nagpapakalungkot sa kumag na yun…nakakainis…I bet…sa dinami dami ng babae niya…ni hindi nga niya ako naiisip e…tapos after niya tanggalin yung mga pix niya sa friendster na andun ako…OUCH it hurts ang drama ko…CHAKET…parang…isa lang ibig sabhin nun…siya ok na siya e…ok na yung buhay niya e…e bakit ako…hindi ko magawang maging ok ako…lahhhh…drama…shet! …pero…teka…steady naman ako…Ü
Salamat nalang din talaga sa mga bagay bagay na nagpapasaya saakin…anjan ang Sports…sarap mag sports…nakakapagpapayat din yun…wahaha…nalilibang ako…salamat sa mga kaibigan ko…kahit kami kami nalang nag nag s-spa sa isat isa…at nag d-dramahan at nagtatablahan at nag cha-chakahan…masaya…hahaha…I think…salamat na rin sa mga Governors people…siguro kaya I also like to have them around…kasi atleast…may nakikita akong tao…may ibang nakakakwentuhan…may pinagkukwentuhan…(tulad ni Andrei…HAHAHAH!!!)…at least masaya diba…no time for lonely moments…which is good for our health! Ü
Hay naku…to all my friends out there na nas-spa because of love life chuvaness…lets stop na…hay naku…tama na…ibaling nalang natin ang sa iba…its so unfair!!! I think dapat iniisip ko...nararapat ba siya saatin...magiging akin ka ba talaga?!?!...parang ganun!!! …I think its time na maghanap ng bagong prospect…tamang tama…may bagong member ang Fairfax boys…wahahaha…ano Ali???...pwede na siya diba??? Confident sa tiyan niya…hahaha! Ü

Para sa lahat ng mga bagay at pangyayari na nagpapasaya saakin…maraming salamat…ngaoyn…hindi ko na naiisip(masyado) si McDeary…andun na ako sa phase na … I figured out that it hurts a lot less to just not care…nahaks… Ü…seryoso ito ha… Ü…at sa guy na nagpapangiti sakin from time to time…thanks for being that surprise I get everyday… Ü…teka may isa pa pala…ahahahah…snoooooOOOOOOOOOOooop!!! ….hahahhaha…nabuhay siyang muli mga kapatid!

Mcdeary…look at me…im doing good without you…I bet ikaw din…so what the hell…lets enjoy life without each other… Ü (WAG KA NANG BUMALIK!!!!)…hahaha Ü

Ilocos that was...

2006-05-02T09:31:00.000+08:00

Me, javjav and Kuya was supposed to go to Ilocos April 29…but plans changed. Alpogs texted us that silang magkakapatid nalang daw muna ang sa Ilocos…I think they are having some serious talks na…oh well…fine…but…It didn’t end there…nautusan kami…ang saya diba…I thought were off the hook…pero steady lang. I was assigned to stay at Greencab with Javjav, nagresign kasi si Jobert…wala nang delivery boy, so we were tasked to do delivery…pero ang maganda jan…we are not using the normal motor…hahaha…we are using javjavs car…kasi wala naman marunong magmotor samin…saya!!!...many were shocked kung bakit kotse ang ginagamit namin pang deliver…para hindi na humaba ang usapan..we just say…nasira po kasi yung motor namin…End of discussion..smile…get the payment…then leave… Ü! You have to congratulate me kasi hindi ako natempt mag order at kumain ng pizza…kudos to me!!..yey! Ü…pero bawi rin lahat…kasi me and kuya had dinner last sat sa teriyaki boy (Goodness…things you missed when you’re staying in cavite!) kasi naman…I missed teriyaki boy!!!!!!...i order chawan mushi, maki, kani salad, beef asparagus and Don Buri for kuya…BUSOG sirrr….yehesssss…pero…ang catch…ako ang nagbayad…HAHAHAHAH…sige na…ako na ang nagbayad…swabe naman e…hahaha! Ü I also managed to buy some string and grip for my racket…upgraded sirrrrr…gwapo na ang raketa ko…wahehehe..yes…I hope mas maganda na ang palo ko with my new string and with the addition of my lavender grip…wahahha..wala kasing black kaya I choose lavender nalang kesa mint green…davah!?!!
I also baby sit Minik…this kid is hearing toooooo much adult conversation from us…we called tom-tom sa ilocos…and this is is how the conversation went…

TOMTOM: Hello Dominique….namiss na kita dito sa Ilocos…
MINIK: Tom… TANGINA MO…GAGO KA! Lagi mo nalang pinapadugo yung ilong ko nung anjan ako sa ilocos…ULOL ka. Ngayon hindi mo na ako mapapdugo ang ilong!

…and there was silence…actually…nagulat kami at nagtawanan…pero…anpatahimik kami…I know wve been messing with the kid pagdating sa mga ganung bagay…you know..tuturuan namin mag Bad sign…stuffs like that…hahahayyyy…wake up call…tigilan na talaga naming…now if you ask her what is bawal…she will say…TANGINA MO…at GAGOI…hayyy…turuan na kaya naming manigarilyo at uminom si minik???...whahahah..patayin siguro kami ni aunte merlie!!!...hahah! Ü…eventhough hindi kami natuloy sa ilocos…it was still cool…steady…at least bonding ulit kami ni kuya at ni javjav… Ü…

Cant wait to play badminton and test my new racket!!!yehey! Ü

WOK-WIK-SEH-BEN_TEEEN

2006-05-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

Ww17…its been a good week…im saying it once again…WERE BACK ON THE ROAD!!!...feels good to be active again…wahehehe...with all the CIM DT request and the Dothan WIFS…plus the emergency leave of miner(due to bronchi) here I am…walking around the halls… Ü…and it definitely feels good…sabi ko nga kay Rhaleigh…masaya ako this week…kasi marami ako ginagawa…wahehehe… Ü…hahah… naghihiritan nalang kami ni popsie…”Uyyy popsie…kamusta ka na???...busy na ako ngayon”…hahah! Ü…im now having delays in responding to emails…hahaha…GUYS…BUSY NA AKO!!!..hahaha…
Its also a busy week,
Monday we played badminton, actually game nila ali & ate russel…wawa naman roomie…she had to play 3 games kasi wala si ate tina. I played with other CMO A gerls.
Then came Tuesday, I went to the gym…sudden urge to loose more fats…63 kilos nalang ako…target…60…60 lang muna…baka mamatay na ako nyan…if I reach 60…then 55…wahahaha…cross fingers…everybody is into slimming right now…summer na kasi and everybody is prepping up for something…actually me…CDO! Ü I ran for around 20 mins sa treadmill then another 15 mins sa bike then lots of stretching. Actually, stretching really helps a lot to avoid those muscle pains…stretching should be done before and after strenuous activities.
Wednesday, our vball game was cancelled kasi out na yung kalaban namin, so that gave us 5-2 standing, we are actually in for the semis…yeyyyyy! Ü…hope we make it ulit sa finals…defend our crown…nahaks! Ü Me and my team mates decided to practice nalang, thenwe had dinner sa Jollibee after, konting kwentuhan…and shempre…ang aming prayer meeting…wahehehe Ü
Thursday, we played badminton sa eagle ridge, there were many people playing badminton kaya marami kami nakalaro…it was one laspagan night for badminton….hahaha..mga addict! Ü
Friday…it was indeed a busy day!!! Ü…I thought mag undertime kami ni ali cause she has to leave early…pero…we left at 4pm na rin…busy si roomie doing WIF…ako busy rin…basta busy ako ha…ang saya ko noh…that was my 1st CIM meeting…hahaha…ang hirap ng madaming kaibigan…parang…nap-pressure ako na approved ang DT request nila…hahahaha…di naman…lets meet half way ang drama ko Ü
I was home early…EARLY!!!!...actually…naghahanap pa ako ng gimik…kasi nga im not use to be home early every Friday…hahaha…pero it was ok…kasi I helped mom and dad packed their stuff…kasi uwi sila ng ilocos…we are scheduled to leave (kaming magpipinsan) Saturday…pero that story will be a different blog naman… Ü

Hayyyy…I hope tuloy tuloy na ang pagigin busy ko…wahahaha! Ü

Kuya Jess…maraming maraming salamat po ha… Ü

nywahahahahahah!

2006-04-24T08:37:00.000+08:00

hahahaha! DJ created this character online...van as southpark character. Nywahahahahha..hahahahah!....HAHAHAH...now tell me...why am i smiling...nyahahah...Ü
Hahahahaha...Jona, Jay, Jerk...salamat...ahahahahah...you could have picked a better excuse!Ü!...wahehehehe...pero oks lang..."deins naman daw hassle"...hahahahah...WAHAHAHAH!!!..ganado ako maglinis ng bahay...hahah!Ü!

Latest Addiction

2006-04-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

"Wake Up"
Coheed and Cambria

I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again.
I wish that I could stay but you argue.
More than this I wish you could've seen my face
In backseat staring out the window.

I'll do anything for you,
Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back.
In a phrase to cut these lips,
I love you.

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up.

I earned through hope and faith
The curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever.
If morning never comes for either one of us,
Then this I pray to you wherever.

I'll do anything for you.
This story is for you.('Cause I'd do anything you want me to... for you.)
I'll do anything for you,
Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back.
In a phrase to cut these lips,
I loved you.

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up.

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up.

My Roots

2006-04-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

It was nice to see old faces once again. Its nice to be back in time wherein people call me by my last name…VILLAMOR!...hahah…oh high school life… Ü. It was a spontaneous invitation from bullen that led to this little get together…then I called up Lady and Boman…though it was a quick time together…it was fun and did a quick catch up moment with each other. Ü…we plan to do this again..next time bigger crowd please! Ü…I miss the PISAY people…I miss bembot, aly, ms. Bau and the rest of our professors…I must admit…HS is one of the heydays in my life. Lots of memories…talk about growing up…Ü

Xs: Our school is now named…San Beda Alabang…from St. Benedict College…from Benedictine Abbey School. I still prefer the original name…Benedictine Abbey School.

LORMA HOSPITAL-EXECUTIVE SUITE B

2006-04-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

I spent my 2006 holy week doing apostolic deed. While others were enjoying their selves in beaches, province etc…me, vlads, javs and merlie were watching and taking care of our lola…Nanang. Also known as Lucinda Gaoat Villamor…she is now 86 years old. Good thing she was transferred from the ICU to normal room. As the title states, we stayed in the 3rd floor Executive suites. Now where do I start…

04/12/06:Wednesday: 2030pm: Partas Terminal, Pasay
**Me and Javs arrived at around 930 pm…the queue was looooong…and the window wasn’t issuing any tickets until 1030pm and 1230mn…they want to insure that there will be buses to ride all the passengers…the intel in me rushed to window and do what an intel employee would do…”magreklamo…hahaha!”Boss, bakit ho hindi pa tayo nagbibigay ng ticket…ahh…so may darating pa ho na bus?...kasi kung wala na po lagyan na ho natin ng sign or lubid para wala nang sumunod sa linya…baka ho hindi lang din sila makasakay…ah ganun ba…marami pa bus…sige ho..salamat sir!”…I went back to the line with javs and spent the night away with Gameboy, Calvin and Hobbes, Alternative Music, and Narnias Book1…those were the things that made us survive 5 grueling hours for the bus to arrive…yep…we got in the bus around 230am, javs and I got the balcony seats…(you know the seats at the end of the bus???...the six seats side by side…yah…that was our seat!)…nice…that experience is what we call…one for the books…Ü

04/13/06:Thursday: 0930am: Lorma Hospital
**Alas! We arrived safely. We were able to catch up with Manong Jing before he goes back to Dan-ar. Nanang was awake…and of course…auntie merlie… I immediately kissed nanang in the forehead and said goodmorning…I knew she was smiling…even though its hard for her to show that. A couple of minutes passed…the bed was calling me…successful…I woke up at 1230noon…yehesssss…just in time for lunch…the hospital served fried calamares, grilled samaral plus soup and vegetable…(this hospital serve delicious food…I tell you!!! Ü)..it was javs turn to sleep…nakakita ng puwang!!! …we take turns in sleeping…since there is only one single bed and two chairs…we do shifting…also to watch nanang. So there I was wide awake with nanang and auntie merlie…we have to closely watch nanang because she keeps on removing her NGT. This tube is connected to directly to her stomach/intestines, since she cannot eat thru her mouth, this is where her food is supplied. Sometimes,,,if its not her NGT…its her catheter …anything that is in her body…(diapers, hospital robe, blanket…name it…nanang kept us busy with all her episodes). We are also expecting kuya to arrive anytime soon…he arrived late night…around…2330pm….funny thing…he arrived thru Candon Bus line…Ordinary Fare sirrrrr…hahaha…he had a hard time getting bus directly to La-union so he opted to take a bus going to Sison, Tarlac and have connecting bus going to LA-union…heheh…tough luck…that was the first bus he saw…CBL…hahaha…that will be forever included sa mga kwentuhan during family reunion…shempre..including the mormon lagpas bahay incident that me and kuya had…hahaha! Ü
**While we were all talking, and having good laughs at our shared stories, from time to time, we see nanang moving her lips…showing some little smiles…it was a nice sign…she is aware of her surroundings and is reacting to her environment…one of the greatest reaction she had was when me and javs were discussing what to get for dinner…she murmured something and the we asked her to say it again…hahaha..you know what she said?...”KAKAIN NA NAMAN KAYO!!!”…hahaha…pinaglitan pa kami…hahaha! Ü…nanang talaga!
**Actually, I volunteered to do the night shift…but I didn’t last that long…the bed called me around 1am…it was kuya and auntie merlie that stayed with nanang during the wee hours…heheh…di ko kaya!!!...hahaha!
***for the rest of the blog…bed=puwang…space…pauso ni Levin…Ü

O4/14/2006: 0600am: Lorma Hospital
**Wake up call courtesy of Auntie Merlie…”Hoyyyy…tama na…hindi kayo nagpunta rito para magbakasyon!!!”…in other words…what she meant was…”Hpy…gising na…kayo naman ang magbantay..inaantok na kami!” hahaha…buti nalang…breakfast came…yummmmyyyy… this hospital amazes me with their menu…sarap e… Ü…we all shared breakfast and had a short chit chat on what transpired last night…as usual…nanang was wide awake the whole night…I think humahanap talaga siya ng tyempo para tanggalin yung mga tubo niya…actually, ok lang to watch her all night…just as long she wont have her episodes of kakulitan…pero I think it’s a phase she is going thru kaya pinagt-tyagaan nalang namin. Kuya was talking to nanang during his shift…he was saying…Nang…ayaw ko na dito…pagaling ka na…labas na tayo dito…Auntie Merlie would give nanang sermons whenever she attempts to remove her tubes…Ilocano e…kaya hindi ko na masulat…gist…”wag kang makulit…para saiyo rin naman yang tubo na yan!”
**I was on for the morning shift… Ü, this is where the good things happen…hehehe…its bathing time…Auntie Merlie voloutered me to help the nurse…and she had that grin when she said I do it…AHA!!!!!...she want me to replece nanangs diaper…ukinanum ni aunte! Hahaha…pagdaanan ko raw yun para mapatunayan ko na nag alaga ako kay nanang…Kunyamut!!!! All of a sudden I remember watching Greys Anatomy…Ü…Seriously? Ü
**We were attended by different nurses…and rated them all (pinaka maasikaso…courteous…at pinaka barubal!...ahaha)…pero ang the best…itago nalang natin siya sa pangalang…Mr. nurse XXX…(you know what happens when all of you gets bored…you tend to pick on other people…hahahah…magkakasama pa man din kami ni kuya…tsk tsk tsk!)…Enter mr. nurse XXX to get nanangs BP…I whispered to kuya…Kuya..palagay mo?!...he gave me that smile…and said…malamang…i just finished my bath, so I was putting on some lotion…then auntie merlie said…nag iba ang amoy ng room ah…javie exclaimed…smells familiar…and guess what mr. nurse XXX said…Victorias Secret ho ma’am… and then it happened…our (me and kuya) eyes met…and had that laugh…tanong si aunte kung bakit…Ah wala…na dead ako dito sa laro sa gameboy…hahahaha…after mr. nurse XXX went out…we blurted out the big laugh and told javs and auntie merlie the story…hahahahah…simple ways to keep pur minds sane…sorry mr. nurse XXX…we turned our boredom on you…hahaha! Ü
**Dinner came…(it became a habbit talaga an abangan ang meals…hahaha…Ü)…and to our delight…ang sarap na naman ng ulam…Ü…it was tilapia with soup…plus this unique dish…it was eggplant, topped with tomato sauce plus cheese…and instantly it was the talk of the room…Ü…we were thinking of doing our own version of the dish…and we will call it…EggMoza(pronounced as…Egg-Mot-sah!)…Ü. What we plan to do is bake the eggplant instead of what the they did(blanched) and opt to use whole/crushed seedless tomato (canned) plus some onions and a dash of basil…and to top it…Mot-sah-re-lahhhhh…yum…cant wait to try this dish!Ü!...Mga Villamor talaga…mahilig sa pagkain…live with it!...hahah..Ü
**It was around 11pm…supposedly me and javs should already be sleeping. We are done with our shift…but not…Auntie and kuya was in deep sleep…(tulo laway ni kuya!...wawang hello kitty na unan!)..so we were forced to extend watching nanang…and indeed..it was another challenging night…hindi naming maintindihan ang gusto ni nanang…piniplit na naman niya tanggalin yung catheter niya…yung NGT…ang kulit…pinipilit niya tumayo…hindi pa naman nia kaya…hindi naming maintindihan yung gusto niya… to think that she was given given dosage of stilnox and iterax…to help her go to sleep…(so we can also sleep)…pero she was hyper as ever…naka drugs si nanang!!! Literally!...hahaha…around 2am…my eyes were already falling…tinatawag na ako ng puwang…Ü

O4/15/2006: 0900am: Lorma Hospital
**Another wake up call from Aunte Merlie…agggggggggghhhhhhhhh…naman!!! Breakfast was already in the room…yey…lafang na na namanÜ…after eating breakfast arrived Manong Jing together with Tatang, Tita Gie and Balong Tom-tom…ahhh..kids…they have this something that takes away all the stress in your body…Ü. We were all anticipating the maalala mo kaya moment…and it was…when tatang entered the room…he immediately cried…so as nanang…we parked tatangs wheel chair beside nanangs bed…and obviously…it was maalala mo kaya moment…live…we were all quiet and we let them had their moment. Prior Tatangs entrance in the room, we picked up tatang at the GF of Lorma…I bet he didn’t recognize us agad…it took couple of reminder and talking…when he remembered…he cried…and then it crossed our mind…ayun…naaalala na tayo…tatang asked for daddy…we gave safe answers to avoid further questions…heh…
**I told myself…if given chance…I wouldn’t want to reach that old age…ayoko na mahirapan pa…yung matagal sa ospital…getting too sicky…pero I bet with my mode of lifestyle…I just might not get thru 70’s.
**I also told myself…will I also have the same better half…I mean…you know…someone who will hold my hand…aggghhh…cut cut cut!
**Javs and I headed for the Bayan to buy some stuff that they need, toiletries, plastic condiments, etc. We took the opportunity to have a smoke…hayyyy… teka…No smoking pala dito sa La-Union…ayos!

**around 1500pm, we were already packing our stuffs…me and kuya are heading back to manila...as we were packing our things…javs was playing gameboy and auntie merlie was focused on the tv…but they weren’t able to resist it…”Pucha…aalis na talaga kayo?!?!...pano na yung shifting tag team natin?!?!”….”Marami nga puwang…wala naman gagamit ng puwang….”…”Shet ayan na…nag sisink in na…iiwan niyo na kami…”...and those were the words we heard…deep inside…I know ill miss them too…so as the things we did in the hospital…hayyyy…
**kuya ang I boarded Partas around 1530…and arrived in cubao…around 23:05, we got a bus going to alabang(ordinary fare ulit sirrrrr…there no sense sa pag iinarte…gabi na e!)…and 2336pm, we were in alabang…bilis sirrr!. Mom and dad picked us up at Jollibee junction in alabang. And alas were home… Ü

In short…I wasn’t able to do all my usual Lenten routines…but yet, this is one of the Lenten escapades that I will remember…I hope that nanang recovers soon. And I pray that we all be in good health…Ü

…ang haba!!!Ü

Lenten Post

2006-04-12T15:20:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder about the abbreviation A.S.A.P.?
Generally we think of it in terms of even more hurry and stress in our lives. Maybe if we think of this abbreviation in a different manner, we will begin to find a new way to deal with those rough days along the way.
*************
There's work to do, deadlines to meet; You've got no time to spare, But as you hurry and scurry- ASAP - ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER

In the midst of family chaos, "Quality time" is rare. Do your best; let God do the rest- ASAP - ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER.

It may seem like your worries Are more than you can bear. Slow down and take a breather- &nbs! p; ASAP - ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER

God knows how stressful life is; He wants to ease our cares, And He'll respond to all your needs A.S.A.P. - ALWAYS SAY A PRAYER.

Silent Mind

2006-04-10T09:07:00.000+08:00

Nanang is back in ICU... :(...the right part of her body is still paralyzed... :(...
Paui's dad died yesterday...may he rest in peace
...in SGH they said death comes in bunch of 7... i say what i know is 3...

...still praying...
van

Ü

2006-04-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

enough dosage for the weekend... :)

mcdeary: kamusata naman po inuman nyo kagabi?
atevanvan: atevanvan: hello ..wala hindi naman inuman..nag poker lang kami

...hehehe...ok na ito :) :) :)
yihaaaaaaaaaaa!Ü!

We're back on the road!!!

2006-04-06T11:18:00.000+08:00

...famous line from jowell during their Bike Ride at Daang Hari...
...and it feels good saying it...

...im back!!! :)
...never felt this good for the last couple of days! :)

...it started with the LKT issue(a project that i never handled!)...it feels good helping resolve the issue...finding the root cause and everything(...you know the drill!)...i miss this...the pressure... ok...not really the pressure...but you know..ive been doing these things for 3 years...hahanap-hanapin ko talga yan...(pachal pachal kasi ako minsan...Ü!)
...then the IX issues...piece of cake...actually, this is one of the few things thats keeping me busy :)...some adjustments and all the work arounds.
...then this surprise that rhaleigh opened to me...hahaha..sorry guys...ill post it later once he gives the official announcement! :)...huwahahaha...funny how i edited my mail signature a while ago...i didnt expect that i will soon update it...hahah..i thought...mga Q3 ko pa siya ma-uupdate...basta as for now...it will just say "van villamor - CMO IE"...wait for ww18...ill change it...WAHEHEHE!...not much big of a role...pero its all good...just what i need... :)...

...indeed it is a good day...
..."WE'RE BACK ON THE ROAD"

kuya jess, thanks for this wonderful day...thanks...thanks...thanks...thank you for answering all those quick silent prayers that i raised...truly...iba ka talaga...you work wonders! :)...maraming salamat po kuya jess! :)
...huling pahabol...sana po gumaling na si nanang...amen!

singing praise,
van

Finally Woken

2006-04-05T11:18:00.000+08:00

... :)
From 88.3 station

Finally Woken - Jem

Finally Woken, Finally Woken
I've been thinking bout things
For a long whileI'm feeling so calm
I've got a big smileI have a view of the sun
Right over the sea
And now I can feel
Life is flowing through me
You see I've finally woken
From a long sleepI'm ready to jump
To make that blind leap
Coz I now believe
I have the power in me
I've got the faith baby
I can truly be free
Finally Woken
Finally Woken
Child don't worry it's ok
The sun is out for another day
And I say it'll be alright[be alright]
Today's the first day of the rest of your life
Remember, remember,remember this, remember
Child don't worry it's ok[I've got a big smileI feel good]
The sun is out for another day[someone's shining on me]
And I say it'll be alright[be alright]
Today's the first day of therest of your life
Remember Remember
Remember this Remember
Child don't worry it's ok
The sun is out for another day
Today's the first day of therest of your life
And I say it'll be alright[be alright]
Remember, remember,remember this, remember
Finally Woken[I've got a big smileI feel good]
Finally Woken[someone's shining on me]
Finally Woken[I've got a big smileI feel good]
Finally Woken[someone's shining on me]
And I say it'll be alright, be alright
And I say it'll be alright, be alright

On what might have been and what has been

2006-04-04T15:45:00.000+08:00

Ali popped the million dollar question last night..."Mahal ka pa kaya ni McDeary"...namannnnnnn....tama ba yun..patulog na e...susmaryosep. hahaha...ayan tuloy...late na ako nagising...sleeping with a heavy heart causes oversleeping...hahaha

McDeary,

i dont know why im evern writting this one...
Jcboy and dencio, you very well know we are close...Jcboy and i has lot of common friends...its not hard to be friends with Jcboy...good converstaionalist and listens to your stories, and gives you that comforting hug when you needed the most. Dencio, one of your housemates that surprised me, he is my insider you know...tells me the latest about you...talks with sense...a very good conversationalist...
When i heard that you were going out with BnP, i was stunned...i tried to get every details about whats happening between you two...dencio, trix, karen, lahat na...every possible resource...pagagalawin ko just to get some details...basta as soon as i heard...nag back off na ako...parang i did not see the point na parang..."raise bet"...(masyadong poker na pati mga terms ko...shet)...then i got tip...friends lang daw kayo...to me...parang....really...but too early to say...there is Ariel...so wala na talga..."FOLD"
...for all the times that you called, texted(wee hours in the morning), passed by our house that i did not seem to appreciate your effort...call it whatever...siguro..hindi pa kasi ako sugarol nun...hindi ako sumugal...i saw myself as one of your girls...and i know i am...pero if ever i did played the game...ano nga kaya...
now...i can feel iba na...as some would say...they have their happy pill..their sources of endorphins...with you..i think ...my prescription is already expired...
Its too hard to limit it to this blog...all the thoughts...explanations...questions..."why we never met at the right time..."...huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...stop it na!!!!
...all i feel is the ice...
:(

missing mcdeary,
van

Mcwhatever

2006-03-31T08:43:00.000+08:00

McDeary,

My focal is quite on the low…so as my love life… :(…so as my game…:(…bummer…i had the burden of having the last touch...yun pala ang feeling...:(...syet
We had a number of guests tonight…we had our friends for dinner, coach jay, Jowell, jerk, jeck, allan, dennis, tom...(i remembered one time you ate dinner at our house...you brought your Tuna Spread and Wheat bread with you...and you kept on saying your ex's name...i say...get out of my house!!!...hahahahah!)
We also played poker, I didn’t place any bet, but chose to be the dealer…I get to have 1 chip every deal…the proceeds goes to the house…to buy water, additional fund for electricity…etc.
We wrapped up around midnight…it was Big brothers request that we finish early…after that…it was cold silence again that filled the house. I decided to get my laptop and do some final wok for Quarter close. I can’t quite focus on what im doing…so I decided to do writing.

There were some mails earlier regarding decisions…I need no sermon on this…I know…I know …(I hope I learn)…thanks to Bianca and Zanjoe…ahahaha… Ü

Decision - The act of making up your mind about something…
…like when I broke up with agie, I chose to smoke, I chose to play badminton even with injured knee, when I chose to drift from my hs buds, when I said yes to my moms request…decisions, decisions….we make them…we gamble on them…we face the uncertain…with hopes in our pocket…just like in poker…
…we have our set of cards…sort of our skills and tricks…
…we place our bets to see how the flop will fair with our cards…if it feels right…we move forward and place another bet…if not…we chose to fold and wait for the next round…we loose some…but choose to play it safe
…bluff…hah…its playing your cards right…nobody has to know… ;)
…having that rueful sigh…hey…lifes a joke…

…so McDeary…y did you fold???...you should have known, the river was at your favor…
…show cards dear…

Post Focal thoughts...

2006-03-30T07:34:00.000+08:00

Im thinking…after hearing my focal…”Yun na yung isang taon ko…”….
Lifes a joke…Lifes a joke…
This is focal fever my friends…this is the time things like this come to your mind…

Change in career:
-Buhay Banda - love the night life…embrace the music…share the gift that God has given me…(not my frontal gift) hahah! Ü
-Buhay Barko - this has been a family thing…my dad, uncles, aunties…the Villamor family went well in this business
-Buhay OFW - if I decided to pursue this, “diskarte” will be my edge Ü
-Buhay Poker - ill be dealing cards and be the commentator at the same time…”Quiet please…Thank You”
-Buhay Call Center - I believe I have some communication skills developed already…i can easily adopt here..also…there are a lot of call centers around Alabang…that will be good…Ü…hehehe Ü
-Buhay BUM - hmmm…not an option!

Goodluck to my friends na hindi pa tapos ang download...
All i can say is....

...Yun lang pala ang halaga ng 1 taon kong ginawa...SAN KA PA!

Survey Survey

2006-03-28T08:25:00.000+08:00

1.ARE YOU OVER 18?
Yep…they say im 41…hahaha…just kidding…im 24

2. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOURCELLPHONE?
Godskitchen

3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LASTNIGHT?
Sleep…thank God yes…tig iisa kami ng electricfan…hahaha…saya! Ü

4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
…”kelangan ko bilisan maligo…may 7 am meeting sila ate kage at jona…shems…na-gegerbs pa naman ako”

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOURBEDSIDE?
Tussie! Ü….for my early morning sickness.

6. EVER TRIED TO SKIP MEAL?
Yes…before I used to skip bfast…but scientist and recent studies showed that skipping breakfast causes the brain to shrink…hmmm…bad… Ü

7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
Hahahaha…grilled sana.. Ü

8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE ?
Im alive alert awake enthusiastic

9. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Hmmm…not naman. Ü (naks…so conyo…not namaaaaannnnn)

10. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
Anywhere as long as there is good company Ü

11. THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
Music! Ü

12. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 1 THOUSAND DOLLARS?
Parker Fly guitarrrrrrrrr… Ü (kulang pa…abonado pa ako…wahahah Ü)

13. FAVORITE SONG WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPY?
Hahahahaha…tama si jay and dj…hahahahaha Ü

14. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
Ngorshy…hahaha Ü

15. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
Its depend! Ü

16. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Van, atevanvan, ate van…

17. WHAT IS THE FIRST LETTER OF YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
G

18. IF YOU WERE INVISIBLE FOR A DAY, WHERE WOULD YOU BE?
Hahahahahaha… Ü secret Ü

19. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD ITBE?
Maling and egg…wahahha Ü

20. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
Fita, Chunkee, BioLink

21. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN CASE OF A FIRE
Laptop…mawalan na nga ako ng bahay magbayad pa ako sa intel…tsk tsk tsk!

22. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Black…

23. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS BRING?
Wallet, cell, mp3 player, keys, pony

24. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
Sumo wrestler…wahahahah …gusto kong maging member ng Bioman dati…hahahaha Ü…Aura Power! Ü

25. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES 7 AM?
Magyaya ng mag breakfast. Ü

26. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
Ay…brown ata yun…parang yellow ochre ata… Ü

27. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
the pope…yah agree with jay… Ü

28. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
Life is good…tomorrow…hmmm..maybe later…ask me again Ü

My Must Haves and More...

2006-03-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

MY MUST HAVES

-Must have Janet Jacksons Velvet rope album. reminds me of Adrianne...hahaha...suddenly i thought about this album...(Giboy din kasi!)
-Must have a decent shades...rudy project or oakley maybe...but as of the moment...my fake, trying, wanna be adidas shades will do. :)
-Must have iPOD. Im a music lover...what can i say??? :)
-Must have a decent electric guitar...Washburn will do...wahehehe...still want those Parker Fly guitar...you know..rockin with 5 lbs guitar...awesome!!! :)
-Sony Ericson K750i - not my dream fone...but this will do...pretty much what i need! :P

AND MORE

It is mixed emotion to know that one of my colleagues will be enjoying her hefty increase on April 10 while she is just around 4months in Intel to date. Yes...do the math...she was ranked and rated when she was a month old in the company. Well...i cant blame her...she has this amazing manager that positions her staff well...and maybe the advantage of having a small department...DAMN!...i worked my butt off for a year..."ALONE" to get the salary she will be getting in April 10...oh well...Lifes a joke...might as well laugh at it...EASYYYYY...inhale...exhale...Im happy for her...but as what one of my mentors said...much will be expected from you...you have to rally...you have to run...you have to catch up...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH///i hate focal week!...jusko...
SERIOUSLY....just tell me if i screwed up...

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McDeary,

talk to me! dammit!

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!

2006-03-27T14:31:00.000+08:00

im dying...im anxious...im super tensed on the outcome of my Focal...please..spare me the agony of waiting...

So Help us God... (taken from The Athletes Oath)

ww12

2006-03-27T08:46:00.000+08:00

This week has been good…specially towards the end week. Even though we lost our game vs. CNO…it was ok…we were able to check out the moves of our opponents. I had fun celebrating our championship last season with my team mates…lalo na si betchay…makulit din and lahi niya…Ü…hehehe…I also elnjoyed the Gen Emilio Aguinaldo day…one day of rest…all day sleeping I may say…yehesss…I missed jona though, she only came to work around Thursday. We invited friends over for dinner Thursday night, after Superproxys game, we had jay, jeck, allan, jerk, Jowell, and dencio for dinner. We then played poker after, me, ali, kj, dencio, and tom…james Amposta followed after…he went home as the the big winner…that bastard…hahah…cant blame him…he had that poker face in him…naturally…hahahah! Ü…I lost 200…hmmm..not bad..for a night of fun…as some would say…I’ll just think that I went to a cozy restaurant for dinner…hahaha…Firday night came and we had our teambuilding in Eagleridge. It was fun…me and Jowell were given the title as most pasaway…hahaha…damn…eventhough we are pasaway we are very attentive in all the activities, we are not the type of pasaway that does not contribute anything to the group…may silbi naman kami… hahaha…masyadong defensive…Ms. Pia…salamat sa perception…HAHAHA! Ü After the teambuilding we had our dinner at Greenwich in waltermart. We got some chips and bought some beer…another night poker…hahaha…im not getting addicted though (next time I loose my first 100, I’ll be the dealer and I’’ get 1 chip from the winner every round Ü)…Ü…there we were, me, ali, momsie, popsie, iam, Jowell, vince and hazel…hail yee to the the big winner…aLi! Ü…revelation from momsie…big time poker girl…with matching yosi..while…bluffing..WAHAHAHAH! Ü…Vince…Lito Lapid…BUNOT! Ü…haha…a tapang a vince di a takbo…di na natuto kalaban si momsie…I must agree..ang hirap basahin ng laro ni momsie…si vince…one hell of a gambler…matapang na tao…BUNOT! Ü…wahahah..jowell cant play straight poker…hahaha..he has this antiques that you’ll see what his cards are…I guess we are both passive pagdating sa cards namin. Next time we play…we should have chips…we might get caught…CARDs + MONEY = GAMBLING…mahirap na…bahay pa man din ni big brother yun. Sana there will be more of us playing, I hope jay, trix, karen, jcboy, teteng can join us…hmmm..i think I’ll also invite ana and alex…hahahah…Ü. Blue Dolphin will soon be swimming in CNO and CMO line this coming Q3. goodluck to the layout IEs that will pursue the plans. Ü…Ngisian nalang namin kayo ni Gib…heheheh..(may alam kami na di niyo alam!hahah!)

McDeary,

Bon Voyage…I hope you have a easy time adjusting to your new environment…for sure ill miss your familiar face and loud voice. I’ll be seeing you in 6 months time.

Senti Senti ulit...

2006-03-21T07:31:00.000+08:00

I dont know kung sino yung ang nagsulat nito...but this mail has been circling the net for quite a long time already...(intern pa lang ata ako... :))...read on..***BATO BATO SA LANGIT ANG TAMAAN WAG MAGAGALIT!Ü!

She is a 24-year old copywriter. He is an architect. They met and became lovers in college. They broke up last year but remained to be"friends."They send sweet text messages and he calls her often to make sure she's okay. They still date. They still have sex. They don't see anyone else.It is obvious that they still love each other but when asked about their situation, she doesn't know the real score. Even her friends are inthe dark. "Parang sila, pero hindi."
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She works in a telecom company. He is reviewing for the board.They are in the same barkada. They talk on the phonetill 4am. He gives her chocolates, flowers and CDs even when there is nooccasion. Their friends are suspecting something. Bakit sila nagsosolokapag may overnight inuman? Why does he hold her close on the dancefloor? Bakit sila magkaholding hands lagi? Sila kaya?"He hasn't admitted anything," she rants. "But I let him hug andkiss me. Parang kami, pero hindi."
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They work together in an ad agency. After office, they would watchmovie, have dinner and stroll at Glorietta. She gave him Harry Potterbooks for his birthday in exchange for posing as her boyfriend to make anexjealous. They made out during the company outing in Subicand nevertalked about it. He said "I love you" once but she wasn't sure if sheheard him correctly because they were both drunk then. But one thing she issure of is her feelings for him. She likes him. And she's assuming thatwith what he's doing to her and with her, he likes her, too. There's justone hitch: he has a girlfriend!
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She is a 28-year-old virgin. He's a 35-year-old bachelor. Bothmountaineers, they became close during their climbs. After a fewdates in posh restaurants, he brings her to his condo where they would makeout. They have been doing this for months. She wants to believe that"sila na" but then she's not really sure about it. "We don't talk about itbut it doesn't really matter," she'd tell her friends. "What's importantis I am enjoying this -- whatever it is."
The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutualunderstanding. Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings.Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where thepersons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, perohindi. This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages fordifferent reasons. It can happen after a break-up. You still love eachother, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason.And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan.It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kayakunwa-kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang.Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usuallythe guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-breakdoon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niyaginagawa),wala muna kayong relasyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo."
This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun. Lalo nakung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan.So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindinaman sigurado kung may patutunguhan?Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyankesa wala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian.For those who are not in a serious relationship, they would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig" feeling.
Aminado naman ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationshipsdin ako. No commitments involved. For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit.My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala."Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sakanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing,puwede na itong pagtiyagaan.
But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship,the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi.Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship,you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K kanga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos? Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rinniya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all.
Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithfulto him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls?Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan.Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us." Meron lang "you and me,"hindi "us."
Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo-relationship,hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may karugtong pa rin iyun. And you willbe miserable, hoping to bring back what you used to have, only tofind out eventually that the guy is in another pseudo-relationship withsomebody else.Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up for fun and thenyou'd end up hurting yourself in the process. Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh. Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the consequences. But if you are certain that you are going to hurt yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili.You can be happy and live the moment without worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the real thing.
When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship with an unavailable guy,a friend told me, "Sige, kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakankita."Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya sa iyo, gawin mo.Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence. Dahil ang "parang kayo perohindi" stage ay bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang doon lang siya?almost, but not quite.

Scattered Thoughts

2006-03-15T12:18:00.000+08:00

We won our game yesterday against planning....Kaya naman pala e...hahahah! It was indeed a good game! :)...winner ang pag coach ni jay...bitching us all when needed..."Jo...ang mga reception mo!"..."Oh ano ang balak natin ngayon?!"...oh well...lalo ko lang napapatunayan na hindi kailangan powerhouse ang line up...hehehe...(kasi ako hindi ako kasama sa powerhouse line up and yet nanalo kami...hahahaha!) blooper pa ako...time out na pala...pwestong pwesto pa ako...HAHAH...atleast napatawa ko naman ang mga tao...HAHAHA! :)
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NAK NG P@!#!#$%^$%&^%*&amp;&%(*(&^%$#@!$!#@$^%&*(*(mailto:&^$%$@!!@$^&!
wag mo na unti-untiin yung pinapagawa mo saakin...kung gusto mo ako nalang ang gagawa...mas mabilis pa...HANG KULIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!!!!! aaaahaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
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Bago mo kami diktahan kung magbabawas kami ng tool dahil sa capacity...paki ayos muna ng planning niyo for the faciliites. Namannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!...ever since the world began...jan na nakaplano yan...so shut the f!@#K up! i do my job...you do your job...powta...nakakapang init ka ng ulo!...dada ka ng dada...wala ka namang alam!...nyeta!
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I wasnt able to join aunte elmas despidida last night...too late to see the message...tsk tsk tsk..sayang...anyweiz...i pray that she have a safe trip...naku...matagal na naman ang uwi ni aunte nito... :)...YEHESSSSSSSSSSS...hahahah! :)
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Bambi called me last monday night...nangangamusta lang...i bet masaya lang din talaga siya...hahaha...kasi....HAHAHA...the next thing i know...her status goes something like..."Its been a while but you still make me smile!"...hahahahha..in lab pa rin ata siya...ahaha!
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03/13 --> birthday ni daddy...same with sir pat...hmmm...sino pa kaya...hahahah! :)...i was laughing as i force myself to sleep last monday midnight...it was a text from jona...asking...meron bang may bday ngayon?!?!hahahah...it slipped our mind...HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEEEEEE!!!!...(jona remembered dahil email add...hahah)
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Focal download is around the corner...i was asking mike kung kelan ba niya download yung result...di pa raw siya tapos sa write up...shet..lalo tuloy ako kinabahan...shet.
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I hope next time i write...wala na akong angry thoughts...nakakainis e...dapat happy thoughts lang...wahehehehehehehe... :)

GAP

2006-03-10T14:23:00.000+08:00

...san nga ba nagsiimula yung word na yun?!?!...pag lasing ka talaga...kung anu-ano ang nasasabi mo...
nagsasabi ka rin pala ng totoo pag lasing ka na...hahahaha! :)

...wag ka lang talaga makapagsalita ng mali...laglagan na...

...sana nagtanong kalang...kung di mo lang alam...

Sana nagtanong ka lang...kung di mo lang alam...

2006-03-07T08:17:00.000+08:00

The first time i heard this song in Jam, i immediately knew it was Up dharma Down...and indeed...I'm right (tadaaaaa!). Hindi ko pa masyado naintindihan yung lyrics nun una ko siyang narinig sa radio...pero ngayon...i keep on playing it sa player ko...hahaha..natatawa nalang ako...hahaha....theme song ko tuloy ito ngayon..hahaha...napansin kaya ni tom yun??? :)

Oo
Up dharma Down - Fragmented

Di mo lang alam, naiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
Di mo lang alam, hanggang sa gabi
Inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang
Panahon, at ngayon ako’y iyong iniwang
Luhaang sugatan’t di-mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang kung di mo alam
Sanay nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam
Akoy iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naming
Hindi mo lang alam kay tagal nang panahon
Akoy nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon, para sayo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod saya
Di parin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung akoy nagkasala, patawad n asana
Ang puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
Di mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naming
Puro siya nalang sanay ako naman
Di mo lang alam ikay minamasdan
Sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
Di mo lang alam, kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Bumabalik lahat sa tuwing nag kukulitan
Baka sakali lang, maisip mo naming
Ako’y nandito lang, hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo
Sa laro na ito, ay dapat bang sumuko
Sanay di ka nalang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang akoy iyong masasaktan ng ganito
Sanay nakinig nalang ako sa nanay ko
Di mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo namang
puro siya nalang o, sanay ako naman
di mo lang alam ikay minamasdan
sanay iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
malas mo…ikaw ang natipuhan ko.
Di mo lang alam, akoy iyong nasaktan

Winning a Battle, Loosing the War

2006-03-01T08:18:00.000+08:00

...fine...i may have won some battles...proved some things...made my point...but you won the war...i surrender...i loose...go away...go away...

"tears are fallin, time has chosen you to set me free..."
- Never there/wickermoss

Somebody Else

2006-02-28T14:20:00.000+08:00

New sharing from the OPM side...one of the few bands that hails from the south... :)

Somebody Else
Wickermoss - Falling Leaves

Walk up on an average day
everythings looking fine
Got up, tool my shower
I dresses up in the fastest time
Walked out the door
my landlords teasing me
Asked if i got a date with you
I gave him a smile, strangely
funny, that aint cheering me
Lately there are colors floating in my life everywhere
But not a single one of them
Is for you babe, you're just not there

Oh, the feeling is weavering
Oh but i feel fine
Oh you're not what im thinking of
Coz, Ive somebody else gere
Inside my mind
Friends come up and ask me about how you're doing lately
Frankly i dont bother anymore
Id rather talk about the weather
No, i'm not mad, I still like you
But things aren't the way they used to be
I can still put my arms around you
but there's no electricity

I dont know how to tell you
I guess I don't want to
Maybe its just an attraction
But he's really getting my attention

Minamalas

2006-02-22T08:15:00.000+08:00

Sharing from Mojoflys first album...si Kitchie Nadal pa ang lead singer nila nun. Ü
Una pang sumikat ang song na ito sa mga province kesa sa Manila.Ü

MINAMALAS
MOJOFLY - BIRTHDAY
Track 01

Ang ugali mo'y iba
Hindi bagay sa ating dalawa
Pakiusap sana
Makisama ka naman
Wag kang balahura
Ayoko na ang labo mo
Pag maginaw naiinitan ka
Minamalas,
Kasi wala na ako mahanap
...na iba...
May mga taong katulad mo
Mahirap kausapin
Konti ang pasensya
Isa ka na...sakanila...
Di ka naman mahiyain
Ito masasabi ko saiyo...
Ang ugali mo'y iba
Hindi bagay sa ating dalawa
Pakiusap sana
Makisama ka naman
Wag kang balahura
Ayoko na ang labo mo
Pag maginaw naiinitan ka
Minamalas,
Kasi wala na ako mahanap
...na iba...
Hindi ko gusto
Ang pagtitig mo saakin
Walang pagkakaiba
Kahit pag magkasama
Di ka naman mahiyain
Ito masasabi ko saiyo...
Ang ugali mo'y iba
Hindi bagay sa ating dalawa
Pakiusap sana
Makisama ka naman
Wag kang balahura
Ayoko na ang labo mo
Pag maginaw naiinitan ka
Minamalas,
Kasi wala na ako mahanap
...na iba...
May lunas ba?
Magagamot pa ba kaya?
Kung hahayaan ko...
...paano na?
Di ka naman mahiyain
Ito masasabi ko saiyo...
Ang ugali mo'y iba
Hindi bagay sa ating dalawa
Pakiusap sana
Makisama ka naman
Wag kang balahura
Ayoko na ang labo mo
Pag maginaw naiinitan ka
Minamalas,
Kasi wala na ako mahanap
...na iba...
Minamalas...ako'y...minamalas...

Song for the day

2006-02-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

I remember...the last time that i heard this song na paulit ulit...intern pa ata si ali...Ü
Well...Ü...its my turn to play it over and over again....

...there's a rainbow always after the rain...Ü

Rainbow- Southborder
Fallin out, fallin in
Nothin's sure in this world, no no
Breakin out, breakin in
Never knowin what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all

Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why good things begin then just end
We can really never have it all

But/coz oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby just/please SMILE
Coz i'm always around you
And i'll make you see
How beautiful life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Hittin high, hittin low
Win or lose you should go
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life
Now don't get mad

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear
You'll take each trial
And you'll make it through the storm coz you're strong
My faith in you is clear
So i'll say once again this world's wonderful
And let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

Life is beautiful...Life is beautiful...☼Ü☼

My thoughts...

2006-02-17T08:46:00.000+08:00

I was reading treksi's blog a while ago and read her entry...

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I WISH I KNEW HOW TO QUIT YOU

I was telling Van and Jay the other day, what’s worse than being single during this curse of coupledom called Valentines, is not even being able to relate to the whole warm and fuzzy feeling of love. Or being in love. Sometimes I wish I was telling someone this very moving line from Brokeback Mountain “I wish I knew how to quit you..” Because it doesn’t really mean he wants to quit, but he is so overwhelmed with love, he doesn’t know how to handle it anymore. And I used to want that. No. I still want that. I want to want that. But after several heartaches, it seems my heart just stopped.

Just barely a month ago, I was wondering how I can ever un-love bestie. No matter what I tried to do then, he was always in my heart. I loved him so much I went into the I’ll-take-whatever-I-can-get mode L But one day I woke up and realized I was so tired. Of crying and longing for things that I can never have with him. Of wishing he was mine to love and to hold and to hug. It was one of the saddest days in my life.

And just like that, I was able to quit him. My heart quit on him.

Sometimes it scares me because it’s as if my heart has quit on love, too.

...after reading this...i remember how it went with Brian...it is true what other people say..."Gigising ka isang araw tapos parang...wala na...ayaw mo na..."...yun ang kinatapusan ko sa feelings ko for brian...nagsawa na rin...manhind na manhid sa mga nangyari...i think ito rin yung sinsabi nila na..."time heals all wounds"...

alam ko ngayon...m hurting...sobra...(marekoy...hug nga jan!!!)...pero...alam ko malalagpasan ko nalang din ito...kinaya ko non..kakayanin ko rin ngayon...Ü...kaya para sa mga kakilala ko na chaket chaket din ang puso...we'll get thru this...Ü...hmmm...meantime guys...?!?!?!ÜÜÜ

...pachal pachal nalang!Ü!

Sana Sinabi

2006-02-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

Sana Sinabi
Soapdish

Balita ko ay meron nang iba
Kaya akoy wala na talaga
Ang sakit isipin
Na ang dali mo lang limutin
Napagod na saaking pag hihintay
Mga pangakoy di na rin naibigay
Pero kaya naman limutin
Mga kakulangan saakin

Sana sinabi mo na kaagad
Para kung pwede di na naglakad
Sana sinabi mo na kaagad
Para kung pwede di na naglakad
Patungo saiyong mundo gusto nang balikan
At pangakong di na rin iiwanan

Mga luhang natuyo na sa mukha
Mga pangarap na lamang nawala
Pasulyap sulayap nalang sa langit
At nangangarap na itoy maulit

Sana sinabi mo na kaagad
Para kung pwede di na naglakad
Sana sinabi mo na kaagad
Para kung pwede di na naglakad
Patungo saiyong mundo gusto nang balikan
At pangakong di na rin iiwanan

BIGLAAN

2006-02-07T10:12:00.000+08:00

ang bilis...a while ago...i was just wrting my blog regarding trrasnferring cube...
ngayon...im in my new cube na!!!
...ang tahimikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...
too much changes coming my way...
I have to be ready...
Kailangan maging handa...
...Buckle up!

I'll be missing you...

2006-02-07T07:50:00.000+08:00

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to breakI'll be missing you

...as uncle jcboy said...ok lang na mamiss ko yung isang tao...this too shall pass. Ive been trying to avoid him...kaya..dito ko nalang ilalabas...

...you'll be leaving soon...i'll be transferring cube... :(
...i wont be hearing your loud voice...asking your peers whether this tester is free...has the lots been processed... the White paper approved... :(...I wont be hearing you sing..."Natapos na ang lahat...andito pa rin ako..."...no more funny, sarcastic remarks to GL...no more over the cube conversation...waaaaahhh!Ü!...ang hirap mong iwasan...hahahah!Ü!

NAKAKAINISSSSSSSSSS!!!!...umalis ka na lang..at wag nang bumalik pa!!!! :(
OM ENOUGH NA SAIYO!!!!

change topic... :)... :(

I wont be sleeping in big brothers house on wed night, i'll be meeting up with agie...this is the moment of truth...last sunday...he left this hanging question..."Van, gusto mo pa ba?...tuloy pa ba natin ito..."...hindi ako nakasagot e... :(...hanggang ngayon...hindi ko pa rin alam ang isasagot ko...kayo..palagay niyo...ano ang isasagot ko?

...hahaha!...ang ikli lang ng blog kooooo!!! :)
marami na silang nakapila sa drafts....hindi ko lang natatapos...

Lilipat na ako ng cubeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! Tactical Cap IE na ako!!! hahaha! :)
gaya ng sinasabi namin lagi sa mga openign prayers ng mga tourney....
"SO HELP ME GOD!"

so whats up?!?

2006-02-01T10:53:00.000+08:00

due to the overflowing people attending the bum, i was one of the many people who were shut closed of the door and went back to their cube. and so...i have time to do my blog...yipeee!Ü!

i already celebrated my 24th bday...yey...1 more year and i will be 25...Ü
i celebrated my birthday with my relatives, ate arlene and ate malou joined us in CPK together with me, mom, dad and kuya...(thank God no ngorsh ngorsh...Ü...nice bday gift!) Tita libay and my other cuzns were a bit late...ate malou will be going back to canada Jan. 31, i told her if she could bring some pulvoron to canada and bring it to aitor (...so lolo, if you are reading this, you know what im talking about!Ü!). Mom and Dad also celebrated their pearl year anniv...wow...congrats to mom and dad....i pray that me and my future husband surpass what my parents have right now.
last w04.3, we had a spontenoues inuman session in new bedford...hahaha..sa kabilang street lang namin yan!Ü!we had no choice but to say yes to the invitation, they went to our house...tsk tsk tsk. Ali, me and kage were enjoying extreme makeover, then we were kidding on having 2 bottles, so we texted teteng...he texted back and said that he will be going with nevo and ampost...NOoooooooooooOOOO!...so we backed out, we're still doing kage's presentation during that time. But that didnt stopped them, thats when they went to our house. The we finished kage's presentation while watchign american idol, then proceeded to nevo's place. Together with the magic pitchel, we have...tadaaaa...."PUNYETA" combination of pineapple juice, red horse and gin....you wonder why it is called punyeta?...i think its called so becaue after drinking...all you can say is...PUNYETAAAAAAAA!!!!...hahahaha!Ü! Come thursday...my head is somehow floating...PUNYETAAAAAAA!!!
Saturday of the same week i met up with my pugon friends, wow...almost complete attendance with some plus ones on the side. Too good to be true...si greg and mike lang ang wala...super happy i had them all comin... :) (masisiba lang talga ang pugon...basta nakarinig ng libre...pupunta...bwahahaha!)
...and so amidst all these happenings...im still in deep thought...hmmmm....bakit kaya?!?!?!

GRATITUDE

2006-01-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

thanks bom...Ü

The Power of Gratitude
by Michael Licenblat B.Sc. (Psych),

Resilience Expert.
What you focus on is what you feel.In the same sense...
*When you focus on the negative aspects of otherpeople, they tend to bother you more often.
*When you focus on the negative aspects of yourbusiness/work, you tend to feel more uptight, annoyedor stressed.

It is not that people, work or life bothers us.

Rather, it is the negative aspects of people, work orlife that we focus on that tend to bother us.

Becoming resilient to pressure is a choice.
How fast you bounce back from stress, pressure andburnout is a choice.
> Question: So, how do you choose to be resilient?
> Answer: By practicing gratitude

Dr. Michael McCollough and Dr. Robert Emmons say theirinitial scientific study indicates that gratitudeplays a significant role in a person's sense ofwell-being.

They conducted the Research Project on Gratitude andThanksgiving. The study required several hundredpeople in three different groups to keep dailydiaries. The first group kept a diary of the eventsthat occurred during the day, while the second grouprecorded their unpleasant experiences. The last groupmade a daily list of things for which they weregrateful.

The results of the study indicated that dailygratitude exercises resulted in higher reported levelsof alertness, enthusiasm, determination, optimism andenergy. Additionally, the gratitude group experiencedless depression and stress, was more likely to helpothers, exercised more regularly and made moreprogress toward personal goals. According to thefindings, people who feel grateful are also morelikely to feel loved. Gratitude encouraged a positivecycle of reciprocal kindness among people since oneact of gratitude encourages another.

In an experimental comparison, those who keptgratitude journals on a weekly basis exercised moreregularly, reported fewer physical symptoms, feltbetter about their lives as a whole, and were moreoptimistic about the upcoming week compared to thosewho recorded hassles or neutral life events.

So, the next time you start feeling overwhelmed byyour workload, business crises, or relationshipdramas, realize that you been infected by the illnessknown as 'accidental negative focus syndrome'.Don't worry, the remedy is quick to apply and it isfast working :)

Action Steps:1. Frequency of gratitude.Make gratitude a daily practice.
Native Americans teach their children to wake up beingthankful for each new day. (Harry says; In my seminarsI used to tell audiences to be grateful they woke upthat morning because thousands of people around theworld, didn't!!)

Before getting out of bed each morning (or whilst inthe shower), take just 30 seconds to recount 5 thingsthat you are grateful for in your life.
It may be
* what is going right in your life
* the little things that add joy to you life
* the aspects of yourself that you enjoy and value
* the things in your life that you have accomplished -personal, physical and professional

2. Small gratitudeStart with small aspects of your life to focus yourgratitude on.
If you eat cereal for breakfast, be grateful forhaving fresh milk in your fridge - which you didn'thave to go out and milk the cow yourself for. Be happythat you have a job, others dont even know where and whento have their next meal. Trybeing grateful for traffic - which means that you havea car. Try being grateful for bumping into rude people- which reminds you of how fortunate you are to havethe type of friends you have.

Practice an "Attitude of Gratitude" and you'll beamazed what a Difference it'll Make!

On growing up and parting ways...

2006-01-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

We attended Yuans Christening yesterday...err...actually...the lafangan episodes nalang ang inabutan namin ni perrine. Chubs wasnt able to join us, she said she had to sutdy for an exam, as for mara...hmm....we werent able to contact her...now where is that girl???hehehehe...Ü

In the table with me was perrine, kuya vlads, levs, kuya rg, kuya allan and ate bing. There were only a few people invited, the reception was held at the verdana clubhouse, just near brians house. Long time no see to tita girly...still pretty after all those years..thanks to vicky bello daw...hahah...Ü...JR, grown up man already...i bet...lotsa chick sworn around him...hehehe...Ü

...Honestly I miss brian and his company...man...spend half of your life with this guy...and tell me...if you wont miss him...(Miss them terribly...brian and bawa...lalo na ngayon...)..there were times that we will play basketball in our village, we are still wearing our school uniform...take note...im in skirt...hahaha...we would go to ATC using Brians left hand drive car...watch TV till the nights drops...and many more...but all of this are now...plainly memories... :(

Its a sad thought that in so many ways...brian and me grew up...seperately...funny thing...si kuya pa ang kabarkada niya ngayon...(to think na takot siya kay kuya dati). I felt na nag iba yung mga POVs namin...yung mga prinsipyo namin sa buhay...siguro nga...e kasi naman..mga bata pa kami noon...hindi pa namin masyado napag iisip ang mga seryosong bagay...pero...bakit si bawa...kahit lumaki na kami...parang...BOOM...exactly where we left...pero kay brian...iba...i dunno...siguro...marami kasi nangyari sa buhay namin na alam namin na mas maganda nalang na hindi pag usapan...naman...Si welly, si wenny at si janissa...oh san ka pa diba?!?!...oh well...kaya siguro ganun...

Pero amidst how i feel...sana naman...(and perrine shares the same sentiment)...alam niya..na no matter what happened...kaibigan niya pa rin kami..na if ever he needed that extra hand...he could have called us...wala nang pride or hiya...sa dinami-daming kabulastugan na ginawa ni brian in the past...tanggap namin siya...taena...kaibigan namin siya e...I know he is going thru some difficult time...(i know most of us are)...pero...we are just here...la naman sumbatan saatin e...Ü

"BRIAN: Uhugin pa lang kami magkakaibigan na kami..."

...e ngayon pa kayang matatanda na tayo...diba? :)

and its awimaweks turn

2006-01-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

I saw this questions flying in the mails and trixy ended up being ....HAHAHA...whatever...
so heres's my turn... :)

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Bike, Travel, Dorm, Bora, Frio Gig, makipabalikan...hahaha...lotsa things! Ü

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
hahahah...i didn't had one...Ü

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yah...wife of my friend...officemates...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yah, my uncle abe... :(

5. What countries did you visit?
...hehehe...Malaysia, also went to bora last year

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Health conscious, more wise in spending money...

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
hahaha...seriously??? Jan. 27 2005....hahaha...i got drunk that night...someone stood us up...and the story goes on and on and on...(of all the dates...why?!?!?!...masama talga ako magalit...tsk tsk tsk!!!)

8. What was your biggest achievement/s of the year?
Being independent, learned new dishes...Ü

9. What was your biggest failure?
....gaining weight... :(...missing out for the China Layout IE position (now plus the Opening Arnoldo had... :(...huhuhu... )

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
...KASALANAN NI RAFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!..yah...sprained my right knee...accdg to the doctor...its stretched ligament...its almost over 3 months...but still hurts in some occassion...

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Hmmmmm...dami...my K-hon, my Z600, my opm CDs specially...my K2 bike (na kuya at tatay ko ang nakikinabang....its all good!!!)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
hmmm....no one special naman...

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
ahhhh...if trixie said it ws bestie..for me it was...KILALA NIYO NA ITO!!!....hahahaha!

14. Where did most of your money go?
ha! CDS, clothes, food, travel, accessories, gifts...(gift giver ako e \:P)

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
lots...my travel to bora and penang...

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
hahahahah...can i say EVER AFTER and THE DAY YOU SAID GOODNIGHT....hahahaha
(ate jona kasi...always playing it in the car e...ahahah!)
Also, Hiling, dreamers lullabye, i cant make you love me, dami dami dami dami!!!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
A. Happier or Sadder? Happier, I felt so blessed this year!!! sobra!!! Ü
B. Thinner or Fatter? HELLO ARE YOU BLIND?!?!?....Fatter!!!
C. Richer or Poorer? Richer!...richer hair volume...hahahahah!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...tsk!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
le pigra! and doubt whats going on... :(...hate ngorsh ngorsh...

20 Did you fall in love in 2005?
naman naman....OVER and OVER AGAIN!!!!!

21. How many one-night stands?
Strict ang parents ko...Ü

22. What was your favorite TV program?
Rockstar INXs, PBB...hahah...CSI. OC. Chefs on the go...plus the regular shows

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
siya pa rin...hanggat hindi numipis ang labi niya, hanggat hindi tumino ang boses niya...at hanggat hindi niya ako pakisamahan ng tama at makit ko na pinahahalagahan niyang tunay ang kuya ko...ARGGGGGGGHHHH!!!...nahihiblood na naman ako!!!

24. What was the best book you read?
hahaha...mga libro ni bob ong...the best!!!

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
...hmmm..lots of OPM bands...Ü

26. What did you want and get?
My K-hon!!!!Ü!

27. What did you want and not get?
...sige...next lifetime nalang!hahah

28. Favorite film of this year?
...Jay...skeleton key???...hahaha!Ü!

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
buti nalang i had good mems with the january celebrants bday party...hahaha...got drunk...harrassed raf...threw butong pakwan and screamed at Loves ear..."POWWW!"..hahahah! I turned 23 that time...hayyyyÜ

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Sana i was more patient and cautious sa mga words na ginamit ko...nawawala tuloy ang tama ni momsie saakin...Ü

31. What kept you sane?
friends, family...kuya jess of courseÜ

32. What political issue stirred you the most?
EVAT, coup attempts, oil hike!!!hayyyyy!

33. Who did you miss?
...bowser...definitely bowser... :(

34. Who were the best new persons you met?
Trix, Dennis, Karen, Uncle Jcboy, Dencio

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Quotes from Jessica Zafras books:
- Life is good...you should have one...
- In life you can never be ready...you can only be strong...
and as always...i still believe that life is one roller coaster ride...enjoy the ride. I will always mistake, meaning i will always learn... and most of all...everything is a matter of perspective...believe me...right trix?!?!? :)

next lifetime

2006-01-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

I promised myself that i'll be posting more in my blog...less songs...but due to time...and katams...i'll land with this song instead.

NEXT LIFETIME
ERYKAH BADU

Now what am I supposed to do
When I want you in my world
How can I want you for myself
When I’m already someones girl?

First time that I saw you boy
It was a warm and sunny day
All I know is I wanted you
I really hoped you looked my way
When you smiled at me
So warm and sweet
I could not stay
You make me feel like a itty-bitty girl
What do you do to me

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
No hard feelings
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
I’m gonna be there

Your energy, feels so damn good to me
It picks me up don’t wanna come down
You got me spinning all around
YeahYou need to know
I’ve got that somebody
You’re beautiful
But it ain’t that kind-a party nowww

Well I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
Baby we’ll be butterflies
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
That sounds so divine
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
I guess I will nowI guess I’ll see you next lifetime
Wait, wait a little while

See it ain’t nothing wrong with dreaming
Boy don’t get me wrong
Cause every time I see you (every single time)
I know just how strong (every single time)
That my love is for my baby
But emotions just don’t lie
Well I know I’m a lot of woman
But not enough to divide the pie

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
You know I want to stay around
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
I’m so confused now

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
AlreadyI’m going to be there
I guess I’ll see you next lifetime

I guess I’ll see you next lifetime
OhOh babyI’m gonna be there
I’m gonna be there

...maybe next lifetime...Ü

YEAR ENDER REFLECTION

2005-12-27T14:33:00.000+08:00

...mauna na ako sa pag post! :)

This will probably my longest Blog entry yet.

This year has been a very good one. I felt really blessed this year…so far..this is one of the most unforgettable year for me…as I look back I say to myself…all these things…happened to me…this year…

I was lucky enough to travel to different places this year, I went to galera twice this year…both occasion with my pugon friends…one was last may…ana was with us that time, WOW!!!..i feel honored…she was there…hahah! Ü Thank you Intel for the Thank you bonus early this year…I was able to go to boracay. I was in the land of paradise with Ali, Jerk, Allan, Trix and Jay. I wasn’t able to go to the other islands…maybe next time I’ll be able to go to those places. Fun in beaches…but after that…here comes my allergy…huhuhu…bad!!! The tops for my travel is mg Malysia travel, Thanks to our JIT for having the F2F in PG!...hahah! I was in Malaysia for about a week, I was able to visit the temples in Penang, and was able to swing by Kuala Lumpur on my last days and take tons of pix in KL Tower and Petronas Tower… Ü…I even managed to catch up with a good friend of mine, juli, hayyyyyyyy….its nice to see a familiar face in a foreign land. Me and Mommy was able to go back to Lucena…hehehe..may SM na sa Lucena…AYOS!

Career was good…very good this year. There were a lot of things that happened during the start of the year that I didn’t expect…at ALL!!!(ali you know…) but I took it…(Y!?!?!...y?!?!?...Y!?!?!) I was surprised…shocked and speechless…but I would like to believe that I worked hard for it and earned it…plus I know Ruth did a great job in positioning me…hehe…Good job Ruth…hahah. During the late Q2, we were having lots of issues with management…these were the days that we have the kapihan sessions with raf…hahaha…the starbucks kapihan…that tops it all…after that session, we had a meeting with all the “Senior” IEs…then we felt that we had to voice this out(or else we’ll just end up whining night after night)..and ask ourselves…”WHY IS ASSY LIMITER?!?!”...hahha! damn…left, right…left right…QUESTION!?!?..haha…all has been said and done…were just human, we do have our breaking points…we know the ending wasn’t good…there were no formal closure…there are still issues…but…I think its better what way…”hindi kasi lahat ng bagay may sagot, minsan mas maganda aminin nalang na nagkamali…mas madaling tanggapin at unawain at magpatawad”. Mid year, came Gib, finally, I can offload my tactical work..YEY! YEY! YEY!..BOOM! BOOM! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!...GYAT T GYATT GYATT!!!...whatever!!! this will be my downfall…for sure… L…then came Q4…suddenly I feel under loaded…hahaha…maybe I was used to the set up …that I do it all…hahaha…came end close was Pam and Mike. Tsk tsk tsk…more competition for focal…tsk tsk tsk… I just hope that I lived up to the expectation…speaking of…need to finish my focal write up…Hmmm…on the side…there once lived the Jona jona musikahan Band…it lasted for…what?!?!..hahah…oh well…change of priorities…(narinig ko nay an dati…shet!)…I managed to join another band…not sure if we’ll get anywhere…kopi just got a new job that requires him to work late nights…now…is there any gig during mornings?!?...tell me…tsk3!

This year, health was a so so … im getting worried with moms health… L… she is already taking too many medicines to take care of CTS. She doesn’t want to take the laser surgery, she’d rather take those medication rather undergo surgery. Daddy is still taking maintenance medicine for his blood pressure…shockingly same for vlads. L, now vlads is enrolled in fitness first (NGORSH NGORSH!!!). As for me…my morning sickness still keeps Tissue companies in business…heheh. But the hilite will be my Knee sprain…tsk tsk tsk…I almost cancelled my PG Trip cause of that..tsk tsk tsk. Now its been three months with no exercise…im still watching my knee…promise next year, I’ll get back to the gym and the badminton court…HAHAH!!! (lets see!!...hahaha!)

On friends and relationships…oh well..what can I say…early this year…they left…im talking about Nars and Park..tsk3!...Jan 27…need to replace the memories…They came…they left…together with the Christmas breeze…but I guess…that’s how life is..people come and go...but life goes on. Bambi went to Bahrain with Tita Lydia, but this guys came to my life… ali, jerk and juli...Oh, there was also the car pool memories…me, bambi, carlo and henry…bambi and henry resigned from intel..so there was me, ali , jay and Carlo, the set up didn’t worked out…WFH, Woke up late, 7 AM meeting…it didn’t last that long…it ended up that each one still drive their car… Its also nice to meet up with my JIT Partners…Josjua, Mark, Vernon, Compa Manrique, Master Goh….great guys! Ü!....hi mark…how was your vacation? Ü…oh oh oh…also…dennis…hahaha…great gut that I’ll miss for sure…together with the choco rolls and the 3pm translation 101’s Ü
I think one of the highlights during this year was…all of us were single…hahaha..believe me…it was reliving the night by night drinking sessions we had…hahah…Giligans made a fortune from us during those days…I even remember raf would follow after his MBA classes, still manage to stay for late night drinks even with BK reviews. Jowell…oh Jowell...those nights that he will do his monologues about dee…”Kasalan ko rin kung bakit ganun ang tingin niyo kay dee”…then here is ali and van…”Oh ali, van…SALO!”…tsk tsk tsk..pwede bang…”Oh kuya Jess…SALO!!!”…hahaha! And because of the night sessions…ali got grounded..yah..tsk3! that was a hard time for her…I still have her mms msg, after the night that Jowell and I called her up…she said...that was the first time that she smiled/laughed for a very long time…then she even thought of resigning or applying for a different position…but all ended up well…look at her…she is now the Conroe EI…YOU GO GIRL!!!...hahahaha! Ü Now there are no more night sessions with Raf, and Jowell. Raf is now one of the most sought after guy in Ateneo MBA…(who would’ve thought?!?!), Jowell got back with dee. (Good for you..mahal mo naman siya e! Ü) Now the night sessions are with Girlfriends in Big Brothers house and Drinking sessions in the Place to be…hahaha..To the wound that never heals…PU!@#$#!!!!...hahaha..yun lang! I miss Bowser…he is now in Riyadh…working his butt to earn money and what…he’ll come back to the Phils and…STUDY!!!...ang sipag ng batang ito…I admire him for his desire to learn… I miss bawa… L ..i miss our late night talks under the chico tree…I swear…I wont let daddy cut the chico tree…L…there we shared tons of laughs, tears and many many more. I miss having bawa around. L…I miss the way he can fill up any silence…good conversationalist kasi si bawa. I hope he is doing all good…where ever he is. Agie asked me…baka naman kami daw ang magkatuluyan ni bawa…I laughed hard…I don’t know…the thing bawa and I shared…I think this is what other people call…PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP?!?!?...basta..what i know..what we have…hanggang jan lang. Ü…kahit you catch us holding hands..hugging each other…that’s all to it…I guess..that is the bond you form with your childhood friends. Hmmm,,but how about Brian..hahah..do I really have to mention hum!?!?!...to summarize it…he was snaked by Poy, got back with Teen, got Teen pregnant, Got Married..and now…he’s a dad…”Saan na nga ba napunta ang panahon…San na nga ba?” …oh…saya diba?!?! Ü. There were a lot of revelations from people that surrounded me. Now I find solid comfort and advince from these ladies. Ali, Trix, Karen and Iam.(…next time kasama na si Arlene at kage sa girls night out!) Who would have thought that we will be close…!?!?!...now that’s fate…I know they are one SOLID back up…they will support me even when I am doubting myself…no more drunken nights…and they are one with me…calibrated muna lahat bago sumagot…hehehe! Then this maangas guy I saw in the yosihan…”ANG ANGAS NITO AH…pustahan tayo hindi ito tatgal ng anim na buwan sa intel…” hahah..those were the exact words I said to DJ…I was pertaining to hennesy…who would have thought…this guy would turn out to be one great guy…Drago nga lang....Tunay, wagas at dalisay…man of his word…hehehe. Momsie, Popsie and Vince…they gave me a 1-2 combo…I wont forget the night vince talked to me straight…now I was convinced…he was damn serious. Popsie…form time to time…I still hear your voice…”Makipag ….. ka na kasi!!!” and Momsies word of widom…”pag isipan mo muna…”. Oh, there is also Big borhters house…wahehehe…dinner chit chats with big brother, michelle, kage, ali and sometimes…kasmaa si erin. Ü… I also manage to meet up and still be in contact with old friends…pugon peeps still manage to have some get together…lady hens and I still meet…once in a blue moon…how we wish…wenny could be with us….hayyy….
To summarize it all…I gained a lot of new friends this year…in fairness…I lost two early this year…and Kuya jess replaced it…ten times fold…galing! Ü
Agie and I got back together last quarter this year…love is sweeter the second time around???....hmmm….i’ll borrow nerkaski’s drunken line….”Lets wait and see”... I hope and I pray that things will turn out good…hmmm…GREAT!...basta as I’ve said before…I’ll stick with the one who loves me…ika nga ni DJ…I have my own reason…same with me. Ü

Over all…this year has been a blast…seriously…Ü
Sobrang thank you Kuya jess …hindi mo ako pinabayaan…hinid mo ako pinapabayaan… Ü
Thanks to all the people who made a mark this year…I hope you guys will still be included for next years year end reflection. Ü
MORE POWER SAATING LAHAT!...haha! Ü

Biggest song of the year: Dreamers Lullaby by Paramita; Superstar by Jamelia; Sleeps with Butterflies by Tori Amos; I cant make you love me by Bonnie Rait; Mata by Mojofly; Ok na ako ngayon by Milk n Money;
Biggest Album of the Year: Tala by PAramita: Jagged Little Pill acoustic by Alanis Morisette; Ultamagnetic Jam by various artist…many more
Biggest movie of the year: hmmm…SKELETON KEY?!?!....hahahahahahahahahahah! Ü
Biggest Resto of the year: The Pizza Company ; Coutnryside (KAWNTRY SAYD!)
Biggest Recipe of the Year: Tuna Pasta c.o momsie
Biggest Boo-boo of the Year: Bring me…a …SOCKS! Ü…bosss penge ng Parmessan Cheese….hahaha!Ü!
Biggest event of the year: 1717/1718; Reggae Party; Bora Event; Frio Gig; Van goes to Hagerstown!; Thursday night club nights (…cheers to the cardinal!); January Celebrants Party
The biggest question of the year…Who would you choose…the one you love or the one who loves you…

HAPPY NEW DEAR EVERYBODY!!! Ü Ü Ü

HAHAHAH! Ü..yun lang! Ü

UNDER THE TABLE AND DREAMING...

2005-12-16T08:24:00.000+08:00

Ali and i went to SM yesterday went out for some last minute shopping...long queue in the counters...last minute shopping for many people. We bought mug for Dennis, "BABY BOY".wahahah! :)...just replacing the broken mug. hahah!

then i invited ali to eat at pizza hut, and we had the laugh of our lives...have you seen cheese with pasta???...hahah..we did!!!...ayan kasi...ang takaw ko sa cheese...nakuha ko ang hinahanap ko...ahahah!♣--> tough luck!...steady lang! :)

then we went home...actually there were some "friends" inviting us to have some drinks...but nahhhh....we'd rather stay home...at ganun na nga ang nangyari...(no more drunken nights eh!!!)

BACKGROUND: No Letting go by Wayne Wonder. ayan mejo nag semi spa na kami ni ali...tsk3...buti nalang may kasama kaming tubig at iced tea...sige ali...tayo nalang ang mag inuman...wahaha...hayyy...so much an gnangyari...parang ang bilis lahat ng mga bagay bagay...Ü

...waaaaaaaaaaahhhh..ah basta..yun na yon...m looking forward for our Christmas party!Ü! Jakobs Bday and Gizies Wedding...wow hectic ang schedule..

Ang nakaraan...

2005-12-12T08:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry mark...have to write this one down in my local linggo...i'll translate to you some other time...Ü

Hayyy...december na naman...akalain mo nga naman pala...isang taon na ang nakalipas...hahaha!!! sa amin ni jona...may isang common kaming naalala...minsan, nakaraan, mga isang taon ang nakalipas, may nakilala kaming mga bagong kaibigan na nagpaligaya saamin kahit nabutas nila ang aming mga bulsa at pinaluha kami sa aming pag iisa...ahahaha!...pero sa totoo lang napasaya naman nila kami...kahit papaano...malaking tulong yung dalwang mokong na yun para hindi ko masyado maramdaman ang break up namin dati ni agie...tsk tks tsk!...ok naman ang pagkakaibigan namin...taena..meron pa kaming nalalaman ni jona na..."Ang kay Van ay kay Van, ang kay Jona ay kay Jona"...wahahah...tapos yayakap itong si ali...Snooooooooooooooooooop....SHUGS!!!...ahahaha! (aLi, touchy ka...BWAHAHA!)...hahaha...happy memories naman e...yun nga lang...all that was left were memories...yun na lang...sad to think na hindi man lang tumagal yung "friendship"...nagkaroon ng change of plans...hahaha..wow, ngayon ko lang narinig ang ganung storyline...sanghilaw!!...ahaha...ngayon..hindi ko na nakikita ang sarili ko na sinsabi ang mga katagang..."Babalik din kayo sa mga kamay namin!!!"(with matching hand gestures!!!). Nakakatawa...nung thursday na nagsimba kami ni ali..instant flashback ng mga nangyari...hahaha!....san na nga ba napunta ang pagkakaibigan...tsk tsk tsk...oh well...steady lang naman..kasi kung may umalis...mmay mga dumating...ganun lang naman yun e...

Nagsimula ang lahat sa Zarkys, yun pala doon din magtatapos. tsk tsk tsk...in fairness...marami akong natutunan sakanila..."O ilan ito...?"..."Pupunta ako ng beach...magdadala ako ng..."..."Ito bang tissue holder?...ito bang Knorr seasoning???"...hahahah!!!...nagkaroon pa ng time na nagkasubukan ng talino...yung isa tuloy saamin...laging in deep thought..wahaha..si jerk ba may nasagot sa mga lateral question?...wahehe...

AYAYAYYY!!!...napakarami pang kanta na nagpapaalala...sa dinami dami ng kinanta namin sa el dorado...madami dami talagang kanta yun...pero iba pa rin ang...snnoooooOOOOOOooooooooPP!!!...ahahah..binilhan tuloy ako ni ali ng snoopy na stuff toy!...galing pa ng pamapanga!!!...wahahah!

hayyy...asan na nga ba?asan na nga ba kami ngayon...WALA NA!!!..change of plans daw...asus...kalokohan...ahahaha...oh well...hindi naman kelangan ipilit ang mga bagay bagay e...kung wala..e di wala...ika nga ni raf...KUNG AYAW MO WAG MO!...ahaha..pero ngayon...hindi ko alam kung masasbi ko pa na..."babalik din kayo...Maghihintay lang kami..."...

"...nakita ko nang lahat ito..pinahihiwatig ng mata mo...salamat na lamang saiyo..."

LSS ..again...

2005-12-09T14:56:00.000+08:00

tsk3!...na-addict!!! :)

Just Take my Heart
Mr. Big

It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping
I can't imagine living my life after you're gone
Wondering why so many questions have no answers
I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong
Where is our yesterday
You and I could use it right now
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

Here we are about to take the final step now
I just can't fool myself,
I know there's no turning back
Face to face it's been an endless conversation
But when the love is gone you're left with nothing but talk
I'd give my everythingIf only I could turn you around
But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go
I don't have the need for it anymore
I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold
Just take my heart when you go

latest song in my player...

2005-12-08T14:37:00.000+08:00

From Narnia OST.

Waiting for the World to Fall
Jars of Clay

I'm afraid it's been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I've grown beyond the walls to where I've never been
And it's still winter in my wonderland

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

I close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don't ever change the shape of who I am to You

I'm waiting for the world to fall
I'm waiting for the scene to change
I'm waiting when the colors come
I'm waiting to let my world come undone

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I'm waiting

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ULTAMAGNETIC JAM

2005-12-05T12:14:00.000+08:00

i finally got a copy!!! yey! yey! yey!..thanks to sodexho...hahaha! :)

it was a brave move by the organizers to get various artist from different genres..there was southborder, paolo santos , MYMP. I have read a lot of reviews regarding the CD...here is mine... :) .. DAPAT OBJECTIVE!!!...hahahah!

Alapaap by 6 cycle mind - fair rating for their rendition of the song...you'll find yourself stomping while listening to the song...and at the end...the touch of..."GUSTO MO BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..sumama!"

Magasin by Paolo Santos - "iba ang YONG tingin...iba na ang YONG ngiti.." hahah... oh well..style ni paolo santos yun e... :P...I find his voice to strong for this song...specailly the part..."Nakita sa isang magasin..at sobrang gulat...di ko napansin..BASTOS pala ang PAMAGAT... ... ... ..." The guitar effects was cool.

Spoliarium by Imago - Pagbagsak palang ng drums ni Zach sa simula... ay..bangis!!!...signature na niya ata yun...Aia...galing...you wont find the voice that singed Akap and taning in their version of spolarium...galing!!!...asteg...this is one of my favorites sa album... you'll find yourself whining with Aia..."aaahhhhhh...aaahhhhhh...ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... ewan ko at ewan natin...sinong may pakana...at bakit ba tumilapon ang spolarium jan sa paligod mo..."...mysterious yung dating ng kanta...galing!!! :)

Overdrive by Barbie Almabis - Barbie and her soft voice...same way that ely buendia did with the original version...sige...drive drive lang...PACHAL PACHAL!!! :)...biglang may...kwitis sa kanta...hahahah!!! Did she used synchronizer in the song??? I was looking for the second voice sa end part...not same with the old...kaya di ko napansin...hahaha...parang masyado nilang nilaro yung mga chord riffs nila pati yung drum pattern nila...PACHAL PACHAL nalang! :)

With a Smile by Southborder - I think the reason many people didnt like this version is that they were able to transform this alternative rock song to a beautiful RnB song. Honestly...maganda yung version nila...they did justice to the song...Ü...Jay Durias did a good job sa re-arrangement ng kanta...ang lalamig ng boses nila... "do-du-doooooooo....let me hear you singing...ITs no wonder love can make the world go...round and round and round and round..."...awwww....sarap patugtog sa background while you are consoling your depressed friend whatsoever to that effect...hahaha!Ü!

Tikman by Sugarfree - when i first heard the intro...i thought it was orange and lemons...hehehe...in my opinion, i think they could have picked Tinadahan ni Aling Nena instead...mas bagay sakanila...(bakit nga ba walang gumawa ng revision na yun?!?!Ü!). In fairness to sugarfree...they gave the song more body ika nga nila...para siyang conditioner sa buhok na nagdagdag ng extra shine at extra dulas sa buhok...hahahahah...Ü...listen to the last 2-3 chorus...it was so sugerfree...pero maganda ang lapat sa kanta...Ü...ayos! :)!...mahusay din talaga ang boses ni ebe...PANDAY NA!!!!..hahaha!Ü!

Ligaya by Kitchie Nadal - obviously, it sounded like madonna, kasi may synchronizer na ginamit...sayang...im curious how kitchie's real husky rock voice match this song...sabay tawa pa...ay mali..Giggle...hahaha...parang bedroom voice ang voice ni kitchie...hahaha..samantala sa original...ely is somehow belting his vocal chords sa kantang ito..parang si ely..."LIIIIIGAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!"...sana wala nalang synchronizer...Ü...pero saya...ang saya pakinggan nung baseline...naalala ko si kopi...Sayang din the chuwariwap part/effect wasnt there...cute pa man din nun...sana chuwariwap nalang kesa giggle effect...hahaha!Ü!

Torpedo by Isha- honestly...this is hte most off song sa buong album...hmmm...bukod sa hard to believe...pero wala pa tayo dun...mamaya na yun..(hahaha!!!)...she could have chose a different song...maybe Punk Zappa???..hahahah...kiddin...parang naging opera kasi ang dating nung piano niya and her voice is quite malambing for the song...e parang iritado nga yung tema nung kanta diba???..parang hindi e...so parang you wont believe her na naiirita na siya kasi ang lambing ng boses niya...hahaha!Ü

Superproxy by Francis M - with or without ely buendias participation...his version is way coooooool!...feel na feel mo sabayan yung part na... "sawa ka na ba, sa mga hustle ng buhay mo..."...Francis M...walang kakupas kupas...Rock and Rap in one song...HOT pare!!!Ü! Yun nga lang...theres no substitue for the real thing.haha

Huwag kang matakot by Orange n Lemons - too much Tangy...too much lemony :( ...oh well they did it their way... :)...pero ok yung part na siningit nila yung lyrics ng Tikman...hehehe.

Pare ko by Sponge Cola - with all due respect to sponge and all their hits...i got disappointed with their version of Pare ko...I think i'll still choose to hear their old mono version...kahit tunog lata lang... My initial reaction when i heard their version..."Ay di ko nafeel yung pare ko na feeling..."...hindi siya yung tipo ng version na gusto niyo pakinggan magkakaibigan...all drunk and heartbroken...then sabay sabay..."...diba...tangena..."...hmmmm...di ko ma-explain...pakinggan niyo lang...then you'll know what i mean...medyo nadisturb lang din ako the way yael said..."wooooo...ooohhhhh..."...oh oh oh! and one one thing...hinanap namin ni ali yung part na..."Dehins ako naniwala..." na second voice..hahah...Parang naging masyadong mabigat yung kanta...di tulad ng dati... :...siguro its the way na rin nakinanta ni yael...ewan..parang ganung...waheheh!..."Kailangan tanggapi-hin"...parang ganun...=p...pero ganda rin..nilaro nila yung mga riffs at drums...heheh...

Huwag mo nang itanong by MYMP- Juris...i really admire her voice...crystal clear!!! pang pakalma ang kantang ito...steady lang!Ü!

eto na....eto na...eto na....ahahahahahaha!!!!!

Hard to Believe by Cueshe - They didnt changed the arrangement that much..halos same lang...when i was listening to the song...i remembered eheads fruitcake album... :)...i fond it hard to believe...bakit sila...hahaha!!! I used to like this song very much before sa Sticker Happy album nila...it was too much of the Alex Band effect...parang nasusuka nalang ako habang napapkinggan ko sila na kinakanta...i could imagine their tonsils wiggling wiggling while they are trying to reach those mailto:notes...hahaha...!@$$#$&^%#!@^%%#!@%!$#^@%#!$%!$#%#!$^%!$#^$^!#%!$^^$#....hahaha....Its so hard to believe nga!!! hahahahah!

Alcohol by Radio Active Sago Project - Nobody can do this rendition except for Radio Active Sago... the sax was goooooooooooooooooooooodddddd....sabayan mo pa ng nilalarong gitara...GALENG!!!...sabay..drum rollsss......SHET!!!...PUTANG INA....hahahaha!!!... if you want to vent out some ...si kiko maching...nasa dulo ng kanta...ALCOHOL...ALCOHOL!!!

Maling Akala by Brownman Revival - their version is good...sana nga lang...nasabay siya ilabas together with the other songs in the album...ang labas tuloy...medyo..sawa na yung tao...hehehe...

Ang Huling El Bimbo by Rico J. Puno - as posted in other reviews...whoever thought that Rico J do the revival of this song is a genius... TRUE!!!...as if this song was his very own. Sakanya yung original at eheads ang gumawa ng revival. hehehe...Yung pa-paos paos effect worked well for the song. "Naninigassss ang aking katawan..."...yiheeee....mapapsayaw ka talga...ok fine..in my case...sway sway lang muna...hahahahah!Ü!

OVERALL, the album is good buy...hmmm...must buy...i swear...marami nang susunod na same format...tribute album...hehehe...Congratulations to all the artist who dared to dot heir own versions...pero iba pa rin talga yung original...kahit tunog mono at tunog lata lang...iba pa rin yung dating...

Long live Eheads...salamat sa musiko na dinala niyo sa buhay ng bawat Pilipino...Ü

Complicated no more...

2005-12-01T12:11:00.000+08:00

Hi Mark, finally, i can say its no longer complicated...read on buddy... :)

My dear friends...this is it...AS IN!!! i know some of you have already said their piece and it took a long time for me to do it...but here it is...this is it...I know i have been laying back on how things are happening...but let us get things straight already. as i have said in my previous blog...

"i go for the one who loves me...call me selfish..fine...but thats how i feel. I think i got burned with Brian before. 5 years .... 5 long years...then broken by the shocking love team. I think that is what changed my mindset. I have loved brian before unconditionally...i never even thought i could love someone like that (specially during my age way then). Now, i have no doubt with my decision. I know i made the right decision. I know the man i chose will be there for me and will care for me no matter what...i know i can experience and i can get unconditional love with him. With all these, i know im in good hands...walang panghihinayang...Ü. The "what ifs" are now over ruled by facts that im seeing right now...basta ang alam ko...dito sigurado ako...unlike sa iba...baka talo lang talaga ako!"

I think ito na talaga....I know... i know...if i still choose to play this game...i'll end up loosing it... i dont want to hurt anyone, i dont want to be nobodys meantime girl, if its meant to be...then let it be...as also what raf said..i might lose both...tsk tsk tsk...BAD!!!

so no more teasing...no more gud am dear...no more gudnyt dear...no more drunken nights...

STATUS: In a relationship!!! yes!!! :)

...thanks to my friends who kept reminding me on where i stand.

SONG SHARING...

2005-11-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

wait...i have to post this in my blog...a very nice song from Ombudz...galeng chief!!! :)

Till my day runs dry (an ode to nawasa)
The Ombudsmen - With the power to Ombuds!

Dawn is breaking
Hear me calling your name out loud
My bodys shaking
Feel me trembling
When you ‘re around

I feel this passion burning deep inside
For you who’s portrait is in my mind
I kneel before you
Offer you my life
So I pledge to love you
Till my days run dry….

For you im willing
To be the best man that I can be
One things certain
Its that you mean the world to me

I feel this passion burning deep inside
For you who’s portrait is in my mind
I kneel before you
Offer you my life
So I pledge to love you
Till my days run dry….

People wonder
If I am worthy of this love that you gave me
And all I know is that it will be forever you and me….

In my time of dying
And wont be waking by your side
But don’t you worry
Ill be watching your life go by..

I feel this passion burning deep inside
For you who’s portrait is in heart and my mind
I kneel before you
Offer you my life
So I say I love you
Let me say I love you
I’ll say I love you..
One last time…
One last time…

ahahah..MUSHY?!?! =p

The Weekend Getaway

2005-11-29T09:48:00.000+08:00

Its been a long weekend...and still im longing for more...hehehe... :)
...bawi ng tulog...har har har har har!!!Ü!!!

wait...where should i start...lets start withy the thursday night...Ü

Thursday

We went to an officemates "Welcom" party(...as per james...Ü). We arrived late...(soooo late!!! =p) . Drinks were in the table...Beer and punyeta was served...then all was consumed...ali and james went out to get some more drinks...they got Alfonso(ewww...yukkk!!!). The drinks were slowly getting on me but i still can manage to contorl myself. Ali and I were up to another mischief escapade. thanks to her "snake" props...winner!!!..Tbeth...coutn 1, 2, 3...AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!....hahah! but Justn had thebest reaction amongst all...HAHAHAHA...worse..all of us was watching him..HAHAHAH!!!...i think he forgeot that he needed to take a leak that time..hahahaha! :)!james went inside his room...lasing na daw siya...so i tried dragging him out of the room...aba...ayaw!!!...i threatened him that ill get him wet if he wont get up...true enough...he got a small dose of H2O..hahah..(konti lang naman talaga!!!)...Second stop...Tom, tom oh moghty tom...sleeping tom...toothpaste in the forehead...toothpaste in the left cheek...splat!...hahaha...the last thing i remember...he was rubbing the toothpaste thru his whole right cheek...HAHAAHAH!!!Oh that was fun. We brought along Kage that night so she can meet the rest of the Governor Hills tenants. I think she enjoyed...good! when Alfonso was being served...eewww...i throw it up in the ground...I'll be dead if i drink that!!! I'll just go with hennessy and do the bottoms up but not the Alfonso...just when i thought we were late...here came Shy...hahaha...talk about Cinderella...she came with a bottle of Artic...too bad...i didnt enjoyed it that much...it was closing time. Fun night...Fun night!!...and.... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

****ooops...P.S. i spilled sprite in hennessy's pants...NICE!!! hahah..peace jame, tom and sy!Ü!

Friday

I was still thinking whether i will go home or not...go to ek or not... and so i made up my mind...i'll join the christmas party at ek...but i will be left alone in big brothers house...together with....booooooooooo...mumu...no way!!!...i calle dup karen and asked her to change ger plans of going home to manila and stay with me for the night. But it ended differently...instead..i went with karen and planned to spend the night at their apartment in manila. We left the Intel around 430pm. We passed by our dorm to get some stuff. Trafiic...traffic..traffic...we passed by shell in SLEX, stopped by Hen Lin to grab some food...Mami and Siopao...(YARI KA KT KA!!!...gagawin ka namin siopao..ahahaha...tama ba DJ?=p) . We then arrived in makati. hennessy went home to have a quick bath..karen and i settled for a couple of mins at their apt and watched a little TV. After 50 Golden years..hennessy arrived. naks bagong ligo...ang bango...di na marumi tingnan...hahahah!Ü! Then we head off to Glorietta. We watched Harry Magpapalayok! :)...while watching..may nagkakamot ng paa..nangnangati daw...just guess who..for sure it aint me...hahahah!Ü! Then after the magic..we headed fgor some booze at BGs.(Wow..nasa maynila aok ko-ya!!!)...mayaman ata si hennessy..."Its on me"...yan ang linya niya!Ü! We ordered some sisisg squid and Beers...then the mood changes all because of a tissue woith something written on it. Jammer: Vanessa, Any song. syyyyyyyyyy!!!...so you really have to use my complete first name...asus!!!! I guess he reaally didnt know my talent(as jay would say!) hahah...i thing he is getting back one me becasue for the whole night Karen and I were exchanging whispers..ahaha.. O.P! Then VANESSA was called...i still have no song in mind..(stupid me..i forgot Tattoed on my mind)...the lead singer was asking for a love...huh..love song...uh-oh..not my forte...i asked for suntok sa buewan...they didnt know!!!(why oh why...support OPM!!!)..then the lead singer suggested Get Here...i asked her to be my widow...and there i was with the mic and the birght lights...and there they were..sy was taking my video..and karen was talking to somebody..dammit! that was caught on video..got to have a hand of that video!!!...bummer!!!...to wrap it up...I finished with 4 bottles...AND IM STILL STANDING!!!..ahahaha!!!Ali...dati kaya natin mas marami pa rito ah...tsk tsk tsk ..mahina na talaga ako!!!:P...we ended up wasted in karen pad...No vic Sotto for the night...bwwahahahah!!!

***By the way... i lost 500 coz of the bet...its all good...was it?!?!?!

Saturday

Off we go to EK. we woke up late...(as expected) we picked up ate tina at MN with her kid. I was hungry for the whole duration of the trip...so when we arrived at EK...Lafang galore!!!..Thanks to Lisa and James for the Pizza. I also shared Pizza with amo raf. Off we go to space shuttle. Mission Impossible: Space shuttle and hennessy. Who would have thought...his waterloo is Carnival rides...hiuwahahahahha..you heard it right...i offered him 1 month supply of cigar, karen bids 1 case of beer...i bet he really has no plans of getting in whatsoever...even with our very tempting offers...but we were good....thanks also to Karl for the additional "Push" needed by sy!...hahaha!!! i think the long queue made the it harder for sy and ate tina...hahaha..it was fun!!!...you can see them sweating...shaking knees and everyhting..hahah...panalo!!! All caught in video!!!..The ride was amazing...exciting pa rin eventhough ive tried this ride for so many times. Siyempre pa...front seat kami ni amo raf!!! bangis!!!
After the EK rides..i went to valley 1 to attend our bands weekly progress. I think they were alls hocked...1st to arrive!!! hahahah...it was a bonding session for me donskie and Tonzkie!hahaha...

...wait...i have to continue this blog...need to support STHI........STHI...STHI....when o when...

***as i have said to karen...i cant be around him... :(... :(

Spa Song...

2005-11-25T09:23:00.000+08:00

A classic song from Bonnie Raitt...revived by George Michael and Chantal Krevauzuk.

i cant make you love me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize -
don't patronize me
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and
I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't'
Cause I can't make you love me,
if you don'tI'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

My turn...Getting to know your friends...

2005-11-23T13:09:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the new edition of getting to know your friends. Okay here's what you're supposed to do, and try not to be lame and spoil the fun! Just copy (not forward) this entire e-mail and paste into a new e-mail that you can send. Change all the answers so that they apply to you. Then send this to a whole bunch of people you know, INCLUDING the person that sent it to you. Some of you may get this several times. That means you have lots of friends.

1. What is your full name? Vanessa Japor Villamor
2. What color pants are you wearing? Blue
3. What are you listening to right now? Sweet Thang (Mary J. Blige)
4. What was the last thing you ate? Basta yun...some dish from home...
5. Do you wish on stars? ...yes!
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Black maybe?Ü?
7. How is the weather right now? cold...Christmas na!!!
8. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Marie...hahaha!
9. Do you like the person who sent this to you? yes
10.What is your favorite drink? h20,c2, fruit shakes
11. Favorite sport? football, volleyball, badminton...anyhting with balls...hehehe...Ü
12. What is your hair color? black to brown...
13. Do you wear contacts? nope
14. Siblings? yes, 1 brother
15. Favorite month? January
16. Favorite food? Pizza, pasta...anything with cheese... :)
17. What was the last movie you saw? ..ano na nga ba???...i forgot.. :(
18. Favorite day of the year? Christmas ... :)
19. What do you do to vent anger? curse...hahaha!!!
20. What was your favorite toy as a child? match sticks...=p
21. Summer or winter? definitely summer...Ü
22. Hugs or kisses? ..both???...bwahahaha!Ü!
23. Chocolate or vanilla? chocolateeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyy!Ü!
24. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? yes
25. Who is most likely to respond? ANA TICMAN...bwahahah!
26. Who is least likely to respond? anybody...
27. When was the last time you cried? ....maybe later...bwahahahah!...oh i remember... Oct. 26 ...while talking to ali... =p
28. What is under your bed? not applicable...Ü
29. What did you do last night? sleep...sleep...sleep...
30. What are you afraid of? ...snakesssss...ewwwwwwwwwwwwww.....
31. Favorite car? Honda Hatchback
32. Favorite flower? Kalachuchi...bwahahaha...anything...Ü
33. Number of keys on your key ring? 5
34. How many years at your current job? 2 yrs +
35. Favorite day of the week? Friday
36. What did you do on your last birthday? Party with friends...Ü
37. How many states have you lived in? 1
38. How many cities have you lived in? 1
39. Why are you answering this quiz? Dami pa tao sa CR...la pa me gawa!Ü!

Translation 101

2005-11-23T09:30:00.000+08:00

This one is for you Mark... :)

**Before I start this blog...i would like to thank my ever buddy..AITOR!!!!
Lolo, thanks for the stuff you gave me (as is)
...sobra naman yun... (that was too much!!!)
so happy with the shirt...(as is)
kasya siya saakin..wahahaha... (fits me well!!! :)...hahahah!)
thanks for the cap and the lanyard!!!...WINNER!!!...(as is)
super thanks lolo...(as is)
next time bawi ulit ako saiyo..pramis!!! .. (next time i'll make it up to you!!!)
SY, salamat rin sa pagdala nung mga gamit...hehehe!Ü! (sy, thanks for bringing the stuff...hehehe)

Thanks again for visting my blog... :)...keeps you on board regarding my so called "complicated" life...hahaha...wait for my gift...something to look forward too for next quarter...nyahahah :)...how are you?...hope not that complicated...tell your lovely wife and kiddo i said hi...Ü...serve me some big fish..hahaha!Ü! take care buddy!!!Ü!

The Effort

2005-11-22T07:57:00.000+08:00

***Before I start this blog...i would like to thank my ever buddy..AITOR!!!!
Lolo, thanks for the stuff you gave me...sobra naman yun...so happy with the shirt...kasya siya saakin..wahahaha...thanks for the cap and the lanyard!!!...WINNER!!!...super thanks lolo...next time bawi ulit ako saiyo..pramis!!! :)..
SY, salamat rin sa pagdala nung mga gamit...hehehe!Ü!

Yesterday we did our usual routine. The Monday cleaning event..and as usual..."Wala na naman si yaya!!!". Kage said she will be going to Walter Mart to pick up some things, so we went with her...i bought some stuff and bought pulvoron for dennis...(he wanted to know how it tastes since i told him about Aitor. :)). We also got our dinner from Jollibee, i ordered Fiesta Value meal #1...Much deserved dinner for all the sweat during the cleaning ceremonies in the house.Ü. Then we happily ate Jollibee dinner...then we wrapped our trash and dumped it in the rubber container near the house on our left. Kage went back to her car to get some of her stuff in the car, i was also out that time...checking on the corals...(huh?!?!)...then Kage went like..."Nabalik saatin yung basura?"...i checked it out...and it was our trash, the one we dumped earlier...i got puzzled on how it cam back to us...Kage and I picked it up and dumped it to the rubber container on the right side of our house...(dun sa nagbebenta ng coke sakto!, buti nalang nasa loob na yun aso...Ü)...Then i told Degs about it...(hahah!..nagsumbong kay Big Brother!)...we were puzzled because we really use to dump out trash in that container...and we heard nothing...then we laughed with the thought of..."Pare yung effort niya para ibalik yung basura dito sa tapat ng bahay ha..."..."OO! to think na madumi na yun..."..."BWAHAHAHAH!..."BAD Cheetahs!!!"...Oh well...instead of leeting the trash stay and wait for 12nn for the truck to pick up the trash...they had the effort to put the trash back in front of our house...THE EFFORT!!!...yeah...THE EFFORT!!!
...whatever!!!!

GEMINI

2005-11-17T08:05:00.000+08:00

I was able to catch Sponge Cola's Video of Gemini and fell in love with the song all over again. The song is part of a certain Theatre Play for Romeo and Juliet...The classic tragic Love affair...call me a sucker for romance...Ü

GEMINI
Spongecola/Palabas

come a little closer
flicker in flight
we'll have about an inch's space
but i'm here i can breathe in
what you breathe out
let me know if i'm doing this right
let me know if my grip's too tight
let me know if i can stay all of my life
let me know if dreams can come true
let me know if this one's your's too
coz' i see it
and i feel it right here
and i feel you right here
the vacuous night
steps aside to give meaning
to gemini's dreaming
the moon on its back
and the seemingly
veiled room's lit
by the same star.

Got the chance to chat with err early this morning, he sent me Superdrags song...and it really sounded like Session roads Leaving you...some comparison:(with the help of kuya err)

INTRO:
Superdrag - Strumming
Sessionroad - Plucking
BASELINE:
Superdrag: 0000000022222222 44 55 7 9 11 12 5555
Sessionroad: 0000000022222222444444444555555
(...complying with the 7 chord prog rule!!!...pinoy talga!!)
DRUMS:
Superdrag/Sessionroad- SAME!!!!!

...true, sessionroad complied with the 7 chord prog rule...but i believe they owe it superdrag to give credits, I believe Bone thugz did the same for their song, and they credited Uncle sam for the intro...Oh well...both are good song, but hearing Garmonbozia for the first time...my jaw dropped!!!(OH MY GOD!!!!!)

oh well...back to work... :)

Take 2!!!

2005-11-11T10:12:00.000+08:00

Gharri..kasalan mo ito...LSS!!!
i envy you..napanood mo yung imago live... :(...
...isa...dalawa...tatlo...(dance dance dance!)

TANING
Imago - Take 2

San mapupulot ang pag asa
May katuwiran ba ang sana
Ngiti ko ang iyong galak
Langit ko ang iyong kandungan

Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
Abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga

Tama bang aminin nating may taning
Itong pag ibig natin
Dakila man walang kasaysayang kakapit
Sa bulag na pag ibig

San hihingi ng patawad
Kung walang salang dahilan
tangis ko ang iyong luha
nais kong ang iyong kalayaan

Akap
Imago - Take 2

Nagtatanong, bakit mhirap sumbay sa agos ng iyong mundo
Nagtataka, simple lang naman sana ang Buhay, kung ikay matino…
Sabihin saakin lahat ng lihim mo…iingatan ko…
Ibaling saakin, ang problema mo…kakayanin ko…
Pikit mata, kong iaalay buwan at araw, pati pa ang sapatos kong suot
Nagtatanong, simple lang naman sana ang Buhay, kung ikay lumayo…
Sabihin saakin, lahat ng lihim mo…iingatan ko…
Ibaling saakin, ang problema mo…kakayanin ko…
Sasamahan ka sa tamis/dilim/langit/tamis/pait/dilim/langit…

Otherwise
Imago - Probably not, but most definitely

We all have raised our voicesWe all have done our crimes
We've been excused of every lie
There's no such thing as perfect
So we could make those plans
Would you have it otherwise

And on the fulcrum we stand on, we aim for better view
Then you trip over fault lines of which you never knew
Then you start to mail all of the blame
Find it back on your door next day

Like twists and turns in radio plays and movies
Mount the script in your autobiography
Take the hero's place and the hero's name
Manufacture spiels for a stranger's sake
Oh, you bitch for truth
And you damn well know you're fake

We all have minced our words
Even exchanged euphemisms
Then we say we must go for truth
We have an ear for envy
Never a tongue for praise
Can't we have it otherwise

...IMAGO, thank you for your songs!!! :)
isa kayong inspirasyon...Ü

With a little Rica and some Novellinos

2005-11-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

We had our first girl bonding last 46.3. Me, ali, trix, karen, and Iamy. Hahahaha...we talked about a lot of things...we talked about RR, Arn/Arn (sino yun??? yung Girlita na PE!!...sinong Girlita na PE???...si Arn arn.. paikot ikot!) Rebound guy, the girl with the Taiwanese Passport...(hahaha...guess who!!!???)...hmmmm...whoelse...oh yes, mwah, also test mic 1-2, Destin...oh and then Erin came...
HIGHLIGHTS:

Ali...ok ok...she was toxicated...no basis for me to file ODI whatsover.,..no reason for me to get mad or so...its all good...but... TANGENA KAREN, ERIN, what happened in big brothers house...stays in big brothers house!!! :)...ok?...SHETTTTTTTTTT!!! hahaha...(tanginaaaa....tanginaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa) I trust you guys...dont squeal!!! (PLEASE!!!)
Karen..it took her around 2 hours or more to confess. And all she can say..."Lets wait and See"...as for me...i will design one of Boks Shirt and write..."When will Karen See???"...hahahahaha!!! Next time this girl wont be invited...nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...kidding!!!
The Motor Trashers club. that night the trashers club were formed headed by Erin and Karen. Karen bumped down one motorcylcle while parking Joy's car...but beat this...Erin....bupmed down three motorcycles...talk about domino effect!hahahah! Instant bestfriends!!!
Im not sure if these were the right words that i said... "To Love is to Risk"...was i really that drunk...i think this one is for you Karen. I dont want to do any homily about this no more. i already said my piece. and that is it.
..fun fun night... :)...hope maulit ulit ito...and sana next time mas magsalita na si Karen...pra hindi na abutin ng 230 am ang inuman!!! :)
WHAT STAYS in Big Brothers house...stays in big brothers house...Ü

Going Live

2005-11-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

http://www.parkerguitars.com/code/models/models_fly_deluxe_intro.asp

That is my dream guitar. Awesome gutiar at 4.75lbs...yeah!!! amazing isn't.

Lately ive been having the urge to go full band and leave the acoustic scene. As what ombudz said...there is more emotions...more feelings, more intensity with a full band, you have the bass, stomp with the drums...and blow your mind away with all those distortions...(YEAH!!!)

I imagine myself singing Milk n Moneys Ok na ko ngayon, lihim and Pagkakataon - (with Park on Drums!!!hehehe!), Paramita's Hiling, Dreamers Lullabye and Takip Silim , Mojoflys Tumatakbo and Mata, Half Wishing and Runaway Angel, Kitchie Nadals Run, Sponge Colas Gemini, 6 Cycles Biglaan, Imagos Otherwise and Taning (Anino maybe..then i'll dance like Aia..wahahahah!) Rivermayas If, Session Roads Eager Angel and of course...Suntok sa Buwan. Love these OPM songs!!!Ü! I would also like to do Incbus's Southern Girl ,Here in my room, Alanis Morisettes King of Pain, Dave Matthews Crash into me, jimi thing and Lover lay down, Maes Ready and waiting to fall (Ombudz, thanks for introducing this great band to me!!!) Evanescences My Immortal (I love the part where the drums, guitars and bass comes in...very dramatic!!!) Tori Amos's Taxi Ride, A sorta Fairy Tale and Sleeps with butterly (you say the word you know i will find you) . Seethers Broken, 311s Love Song, Tonics You wanted more, Indigo Girls Galileo and Mystery...wait...i think the list will go on and on and on and on and on... :)

Just want to experience performing Live as a full band...i think this still is a hangover upset for the WW43 Battle of the bands...damn...we could have nailed that..oh well..there will be a chance...i hope...Ü

JAMMING NA!!! :)

Pit Stop Crew

2005-11-08T08:34:00.000+08:00

HIGH BLOOD POST ITO!!!! :)

On our way to Makati last Sunday we heard a loud sound …Low and behold…the right rear tire blew off. “Kuya, FLAT!!!”…then he stopped. Tsk! (Hassle!)…the time was around 1230noon Expressway, right after Sucat exit. Me and my brother went down to check the tire…damn…Anong nangyari???...Different theories ran through our heads…Napako ba tayo?...may bump ba yung gulong???...malas ba talaga tayo?!?!?...(Ganun nab a ako kabigat?? L:))…so we continued. Vlads set up the early warning device (EURO MADE ‘TO SIRRRR!)…I served as a “Traffic Girl” signaling incoming vehicles to move left…(MOVE IT!!! Tangena..naflatan kami!!! Kung hindi kayo tutulong…MOVE IT!!!).

I got the Jack and other tools. Vlads got the spare tire (Laging handa!!!). the by standers along the wire barricade were not helping…”Sir, naku..dadating na yang mga wrecker”…obviously they were waiting for us to panic and ask their help…and of of course…they will ask something in return. We didn’t mind…(Hello nakikita niyo ba yung katawan naming ng Kuya ko???) Me and vlads were very systematic thru the whole “Pit Stop” experience. We didn’t mind the heat…what the …Pero may isang atribidang ipokrita na bitch na nasa loob lang ng kotse na nagtatawag lang sa telepono niya suot suot ang hulahoop niya na earings at napakalaking shades na nagmumukha siyang bubuli!!!..anak ng tokwa..inaangat na naming ni kuya ng jack yung kotseaba kamote naman!!!...di man lang nakaramdamTUMULANG KA NAMAN MAMMMMM!!!...the nerve namansusmaryosep!!!...dapat ginawa ko na yung sinabi ni jaysinalampak ko sa bunganga mo yung IPOD mopunyeta ka!!! Isa kang certified btichesa..kawawa ang kuya ko saiyoPROMISE SWEAR!!! …its was one helluva experience…we were even joking…how long did it took us???...we should have timed that!!!...hahahah..but we were thankful that we were safe.

Lessons Learned: 1. Hold the steering wheel properly. 2. Ensure you have spare tires and proper tools. 3. Always be alert. 4. Have a girlfriend whos not the bitch type! TRUST ME!!! J J J

P.S.The blown tire is hopleles…:Sir…din a poi to kaya ng BULKANAYS!”…tsk tsk tsk…new tire…GASTOS NA NAMAN!!!...ayos lang SIRRRR!!! J

SIlent Prayer

2005-11-07T10:12:00.000+08:00

...for those who know for who tis prayer is...smile nalang kayo ok?....this is the best i could offer him. No more no less...Ü

I get caught in silence every time you cross my mind. I want to lessen the pain that you are going through, I want to ease the hurt you are feeling. I pray that you may pass thru this, I pray that you get up and make yourself whole again. This is the best that I can do to make you feel better. I think this is the best way I can reach through your pain…I know I can do no more than this. It breaks my heart to see you drown yourself in work, in cigar, in beer…just to lessen the pain. I know I could have done something more when I was with you. I could have said more “words of wisdom”..i could have showed more care.
I would like to say sorry for saying nothing during that night. I was just speechless that time…I was caught surprised in the situation. Nevertheless, Im here to listen, I’m here for the shoulder to lean on.
You can pass by this, I know…as you said…life goes on…

...Ü
...ok!

Its a matter of perspective --> Pugon: The Galera II experience.

2005-11-03T09:12:00.000+08:00

"my thesis mate..asteg talga!" "tere, when will the Plus 1 be?"

As juli said...Its a matter of perspective
TRUE
I had a long talk with mg Pugon peeps. Its nice to see that we are all doing fine. Si jaja nalang...and we are all ok! :)
As we were talking, i realized a lot of things. We were exchanging stories and dilemas...
Different cases...different pov's.
then i popped the million dollar question...who would you choose...the one you love or the one who loves you???...hmmm...i'll release the summary in another blog entry.

ill save the talks ill go to the insight...
i go for the one who loves me...call me selfish..fine...but thats how i feel. I think i got burned with Brian before. 5 years .... 5 long years...then broken by the shocking love team. I think that is what changed my mindset. I have loved brian before unconditionally...i never even thought i could love someone like that (specially during my age way then). Now, i have no doubt with my decision. I know i made the right decision. I know the man i chose will be there for me and will care for me no matter what...i know i can experience and i can get unconditional love with him. With all these, i know im in good hands...walang panghihinayang...Ü. The "what ifs" are now over ruled by facts that im seeing right now...basta ang alam ko...dito sigurado ako...unlike sa iba...baka talo lang talaga ako!

hayyyy...anywiez...its nice to see and be with the pugon peeps again...hayy...i hope next time...complete na kami!Ü!

repost

2005-10-26T18:52:00.000+08:00

felt like reposting this song...

this too shall pass...

sleeps with butterflies
AirplanesTake you away again
Are you flyingAbove where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove inIs there trouble ahead
For you the acrobatI won't push you unless you have a net
You say the wordYou know I will find you
Or if you need some timeI don't mindI don't hold on
To the tail of your kiteI'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home toKiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterfliesWith butterflies
So go on and fly then boyBalloonsLook good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles aroundWe may fall then stumble
Upon a carouselIt could take us anywhereI'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

WATER

2005-10-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

...it was nice talking to you ali...you truly have a gift...
...creed... thanks for the advice...i dont want to be the "-"...

I dont know if i could be a water...specially for very exceptional, for very special extra rare cases!!!
I'm asking myself the questions...napapatulala ako...seriously.
Its a matter of asking myself...shall i belive in fate, destiny, signs...i do believe them then...but now...i'm not so certain.
It is scary...but do i really have to be scared... do i really have to do something about hte situation...
...i guess not...as creed said..out na ko dun
shall i gamble...???

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
hahah!!!
my goodness ali...hahahah..i bet you are somehow laughing if you are reading this right now...

here is a song by paramita from their album tala. (naks parang DJ ang dating!)
(this song is dedicated to...naks naman!)

A DREAMERS LULLABYE

Close your ayes
Come fly away with me
Ill take you to places that you’ve
Never seen, never been before
I know why,
All the thing you’ve been through
And all the things that hurt you
Are eating you alive

Right here,
With you
Is where I wanna be
Is where I ought to be
Wipe your tears away
Coz right now…
Time is on our side
Time is on our side

Come live another day

Close your eyes and I’ll sing you a lullabye
Nothing to fear coz im right here by your side…

Close your eyes
Come fly away with me
Ill take you to places that you’ve never seen
Never been before

(akalain mo na parang may pinapatamaan pa...nakakainis!!!)

...i also..i realized...im lucky to have such friends...
salamat ng marami sainyo...Ü

Going to Penang!

2005-10-17T12:00:00.000+08:00

I checked in around 0610 am at NAIA, departed at around 0850 thru Singapore Airlines, we arrived at Changi airport around 1135, I got to meet up with Jay, Elmer, Karyn, Aris and… Papeco… (Yes, jose…hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!Ü). Cherry and I strolled along Changi airport for a couple of hours in the aiport, took some pix and ate in Burger king. We boarded our connecting flight and arrived in Penang at around 0505 pm.
…I am excited, finally, my first business trip…I thought this trip will not happen at all. KT questioned the need for the my participation for the F2F, I got injured Thursday night. (thanks to raf!!! Ü …hahah!...seriously, thanks raf for going with me to the Hospital…ang sweet mo raf!!! Ü)…I was even asking myself…is this trip really meant for me???
Now im in Penang…all excited…hmmm… Ü
Lets see….
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!
Hahaha…don’t laugh ali…HAHAH! :)

SPOILER!!!

2005-10-12T10:18:00.000+08:00

test my patience...test my temper!
im scheduled for travel to PG for the whole of ww43.
today is ww42.3...guess what...
i may not go at all...

why are they meeting, who is sponsoring this from the DM level
what is the agenda and expected outcomes of each
what is the expected outcome of the f-f
what has the group done to minimize the time required
what has the group done to use other methods, Net meeting, etc

...honestly i feel bad...SAGAD!!! :(

whats at stake for him if he will be able to cut cost at the expense of my travel?

will that be able to fill up his Expedition?

tell me about it...all factories gave a go signal..(some sites even sent two reps)...now CV...c'mon!!!

have some heart!!! have some heart!!!

cut the crap!!!...whats the real score!!!

"Till everything burns, till everyone screams, burning their lies, burning my dreams, and all of this hate, and all of this pain, burn it all down, cause my anger raise...till everything burns!"

-ben moody and anastacia/everything burns

NA-MANNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!

2005-09-27T14:32:00.000+08:00

naman!!!
naman!!!
naman!!!
gagastos ba talaga tayo ng$10.5K para lang mabago ang crytall ball???
hindi naman kasama sa scope yan e...
...nakakfrustrate...

ANIMO LA SALLE!!!

2005-09-16T08:27:00.000+08:00

Pretenders will always remain pretenders; the contender will seize to go beyond further as the time has come for the DEFENDING CHAMPIONS to protect its own estate… and we shall protect our crown against all pretenders and the contender trying to get it from us.

ANIMO LA SALLE!!!

Galing pala sumayaw ni Arana! :)..hahahah.... :)

LSS

2005-09-16T08:19:00.000+08:00

There's a saying old says that love is blind,Still were often told, "seek and you shall find "So I'm going to seek a certain boy I've had in mind Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet He's the big affair I cannot forget Only guy I ever think of with regret I'd like to add her initial to my monogram Tell me, where is the shepherdess for this lost lamb? There's a somebody I'm longing to see I hope that he turns out to be Someone who'll watch over me I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood I know I could always be good To one who'll watch over me Although I may not be the man some girls think of as handsome To her heart I carry the key Won't you tell her please to put on some speed, follow my lead Oh, how I need someone who'll watch over me There's a somebody I'm longing to see I hope that she turns out to be Someone to watch over me I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood I know I could always be good To one who'll watch over meAlthough I may not be the man some girls think of as handsome To her heart I carry the key Won't you tell her please to put on some speed, follow my lead Oh, how I need someone to watch over me

definitely

2005-09-16T08:18:00.000+08:00

...your at the right place, always at the right time...

untitled

2005-09-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

thanks for making me smile..in many ways...hope this will lead to something...

Copanhaggen street

2005-09-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

hahaha...#15 Copanhaggen street...now tell me WHERE THE HELL IS THAT PLACE!?!?!?

ali and i will be starting our dorm life today. yes guys...my parents let me..."Malaki ka na anak..."...yes mom...dad...i know...im already big...literally big!!!hahah!

we'll be staying at redens house here at gov hills. hmmm...due to the increasing fuel prices, the cylclical LRP response, PHI week and the much dreaded Plan 06...we are bound to stay late in the office.

vlads will have the room all to himself..ill remember this month..he has to pay the aircon bills all to himself...hahaha...

what could happen in our dorm...
...watch out for my next blog... :)

071305 GodsKitchen Experience...Ü

2005-08-15T14:13:00.000+08:00

this event is far better than what i had in bora...:)
thanks to allan for inviting me again...i had fun...hehehe...i got tere along with us...ANA????..BOHOOO!!!!...drawing...she said..she fell asleep...ahahaha...oh well she missed a whole lot of dancing!Ü!

i got to see lots of differennt people...some famous people...some foreigner...some cuties...lots of cuties i should say...hahahaha...feast your eyes!!!

i wish tere enjoyed the way i do... :)..

Thanks to jason for the ride...Ü

oh..anyweiz...we'll still have other gimiks!!! :)

...oh btw...ever after didnt played...its a sign!!! :P

A song dedicated to my fellow IEs...

2005-08-04T14:55:00.000+08:00

Don't worry mother, it'll be alright
And don't worry sister, say your prayers and sleep right
It'll be fine lover of mine
It'll be just fine
Lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend you strength to that which you wish to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery
And you shall lead a live uncommon
I've heard you anguishI've heard you hearts cry out
We are tired, we are weary, but we aren't worn out
set down you chains, until only faith remains
Set down you chains
And lend your voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lent your strength to that
which you wish to be free from
Fill you lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead a life uncommon
There are plenty of people who pray for peace
But if praying were enough it would have come to be
Let your words enslave no one and the heavens will hush themselves
To hear out voices ring out clearwith sounds of freedom
Come on you unbelievers, move out of the way
there is a new army coming and we are armed with faith
To live, we must give
To live
And lend out voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lend out strength to that which we with to be free from
Fill your lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead... Lend out voices only to sounds of freedom
No longer lent out strength to that which we with to be free from
Fill you lives with love and bravery
And we shall lead a life uncommon

...mystery...

2005-07-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

Each time you'd pull down the driveway I wasn't sure when I would see you again Yours was a twisted, blind-sided highway No matter which road you took then Oh you set up your place in my thoughts Moved in and made my thinking crowded Now we're out in the back with the barking dogs My heart the red sun, your heart the moon clouded I could go crazy on a night like tonight When summer's beginning to give up her fight And every thought's a possibility And voices are heard, but nothing is seen Why do you spend this time with me May be an equal mystery So what is love then, is it dictated Or chosen - Handed down or made by hand Does it sing like the hymns of a thousand years Or is it just pop emotion - Handed down or made by hand And if it ever was there, and it leftDoes it mean it was never true And to exist it must eludeIs that why I think these things of you Oh, but you like the taste of danger It shines like sugar on your lipsAnd you like to stand in the line of fire Just to show you can shoot straight from your hip There must be a thousand things you would die forI can hardly think of two But not everything is better spoken aloud Not when I'm talking to you Oh, the pirate gets the ship and the girl tonight Breaks a bottle to christen her Basking in the exploits of her thief She's a very good listener And maybe that's all that we need is to meet in the middleOf impossibility Standing at opposite poles Equal partners in a mystery - Handed down or made by handWe're standing at opposite polesEqual partners in a mystery

Food Food Food!

2005-07-26T20:11:00.000+08:00

Me, Jay and Jona...
MONDAY: THE COFFEE BEAN EXPERIENCE-Blueberry Cheesecake, Triple Layer Cheesecake, The Ulitmate Mocha
TUESDAY: BROTHERS BURGER - B3, French Fries, Iced Tea...
what im expecting for the rest of the week...
WEDNESDAY: URBAN CHEF - in short...office meal...maybe c/o Kevin... Ü
THURSDAY: UNKNOWN - Shawees despidida
FRIDAY: MAGDARAGAT - New Hires Treat...yeba...hope theres gonna be lots of shrimp out there!!!
SATURDAY: BIKE RIDE!!!! --> this im soooo looking forward too!!!!!Ü

For my yoke is easy, and my burden light...

2005-07-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

This was the homily last sunday during the mass...thanks to agie for coming with me last sunday...(Hayyyyef!)
it said....
"come to me all you are weary...for i will give you rest"
...i felt God was talking to me...me and my colleagues went thru this very emotional phase in our team...many would say, it is beacause, we are young...and restless...nya-nya-nyah!!!Ü!!!...but i think we made it thru...with great help from our friends...greatest thanks to jay and raf for those timely talks...honestly...some would still not sink to my head...but i know, in time, i will fully understand it...i may actually experience it, then fully understand it...(tell me what it takes for a stubborn kid to listen!=P!weheheh!)
...we are a great team, i know we area. also we are one solid team...we are close to each other, i think this is one of our strengths...and sometimes...can also be our downfall.
...we will get thru this...we will learn...we will mature..
We will not let let our frustrations eat us up, we will not go down to the road of self destruction. We'll hold each other no matter what...we'll have each other...no matter what...

...Ü

Come Together...

2005-07-04T11:06:00.000+08:00

Here come old flat top
He come groovin' up slowly
He got joo joo eyeballs
He want holy rollers
He got hair down to his knees
Got to be a joker
He just do what he please
He wear no shoeshine
He got toe jam football
He got monkey finger
He shoot Coca Cola
He say I know you, you know me
One thing I can tell you is
You got to be free
Come together, right now
Over me
He bag production
He got walrus gumboot
He got Ono sideboard
He one spinal cracker
He got feet down below his knees
Hold you in his armchair
You can feel his disease
Come together, right now
Over me
He roller coaster
He got early warning
He got muddy water
He one Mojo filter
He say one and one and one is three
Got to be good looking 'cause he's so hard to see
Come together right now
Over me

First Frio Gig!!!

2005-07-04T10:56:00.000+08:00

We did it, we had our very first gig last July 29, 2005. Thanks to our manager "ALI the CHAMP!" for making this gig happen. thanks to Jowell Asistio for letting us play at their place...thanks to our supportive FANS...(naks!!!) for coming to our very first gig...to my bandmates...for giving an amazing perofrmance that night...and specially kuya jess...for giving us the talents...(naks...parang ang dami...talents...)

Hopefully, next time we do the gig we will be paid...heheh...i think we need to pracitce more on our songs and showmanship. I observed that they appreciate the fast paced songs...we must look onto that...hmmm...also maybe duets....also the most recent hit songs!Ü! mostly are OPM....hehehe(long live OPM)...heheh...one step at a time...sana tuloy tuloy na...and hopefully...all could come...YEBA!!! :)

...till our next GIG...!!!

...btw...still no name for the band...hehehe

LCBI...LCBI...LCBI...

2005-07-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

LCBI tool is coming to town... :(
still the gyat room is occupied...
my neck is on the line...
YEBA!!!
this is fun...

at your best

2005-03-23T10:21:00.000+08:00

Let me know, let me know
Ah - ha, let me know, let me know
Let me know
When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn what you think you know
There are times when I findYou want to keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength
I'm just a mirror to what I see
But at your best you are love
You're a positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know. . .
When you feel what you feel
Oh, how hard for me to understand
So many things have happened before this love affair began
But when you feel, oh, like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
And there are times when I fall short of what I say,what I say I'm all about, all aboutT
ell me what it is (Tell me what it is)
Make believe, no need to make believe
Look beyond your own (Look beyond your own)
Try and find another place for meCause.
Ah, ah, ah - ha
See, at your best baby

me and dj

2005-03-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

hehehe....me and dj inside the yonah peace room...hot topic... S/A PEVI!!!.....hahahah!!!Ü! i am the non ce! queen...nyeheheh...got tired of that..so many issues...raised my eybrow and evrythin...carlo is on his way to office...nyahahah...late...heheheh
jopay is climbing on the hitcharts...its #22 in magic 89.9...doing great in NU midnight...and is said to be #19 in myx hitchart... still not lucky to catch their video...even imagos akap...hmm...i think i have to wake up at 4am and watch myx...heheheh...for the love of this bands... :P...hehehe...
asan na raw is carlo...baka nasa gravel and sand nag park...hehehe...
nag park...
shet..
heheheh! :P

sleeps with butterflies

2005-03-22T09:55:00.000+08:00

Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flyingA
bove where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove inIs there trouble ahead
For you the acrobatI won't push you unless you have a net
You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mindI don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carouselIt could take us anywhere
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterfliesWith butterflies
So go on and fly boy

another one of those

2005-03-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

spa???
nahhh...dont want to start my week with another spa in the morning...:P
anyweiz, me & ali went to greenhills last saturday...splurged around 3k...down the drain...but what the heck...bora trip will be once in a lifetime...might as well get my self all dressed up for the occassion...Ü
heheh...people are making fun and wonderin what m gonna look like in a 2 pc bathing suit...hahaha...good luck..m gonna wear tops... :P...got to cover those bulges...
heheheheheÜ
bought shirt for carlo...i think he was happy with it..mini cooper shirt...also bought cap for kuya...north face..pashmina for mommy...got nothing for dad...the jerseys were too big for him..maybe on my next greenhillss trip...oh...also found flash shirt for bowser....
...addicting myself witht he latest from Imago...Taning, Anino, Akap and Bihag...love the music...also destinys bad habbit...hahaha...pinches my heart...nyeheheheheh...

How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought, maybe, if I started prayin'
Then we would get better, but
When I would pray, the answer would always come
Back to me, bein' done
But we're so hard-headed
When we're in love
So I...
I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change
There's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on now
I gotta move on now
It's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But, I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take this bad habit no more
I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live
While you're in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin' (you couldn't think about me)
To call me, when I get mad, you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin' my phone
To the pictures that I saw
And everytime you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've taken all I can take (I've taken all I can take)
But, the way I live has gotta change, oh
Let me bring it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much, that you was just too blind to see
Past all of the pain they was causin' you (causin' you)
Ladies, do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right thing that you should do
Oh, oh then it's time to make a change (time to make a change)

...nyeheheh...its not the fact that i dont love you...damn you...hehehe...also getting pumped up by Jennifer Lopez new single get right...reminds me of DJ and Juli during the Intel Dance Idols.

oh well...more to write next time.

2005--Singles Years???

2005-02-01T18:09:00.000+08:00

...waaaaaaaaah!!! another break up in my barkada...
tsk tsk tsk!!!

tame tuesday

2005-02-01T18:01:00.000+08:00

what a day...really...
i missed my lunch...thanks to soupy snax and yakisoba for keeping mr full...:)

...i cried to raffy this late noon...
i couldn't help myself...
...must be about work...
...yah...the work load...
...also, must be because gaye is leaving...
...such a big loss for me...
and count the love bug on me creeping down...
...i miss snoop...damn...what went wrong...
...even ck...shit...shoulda woulda coulda...
...ulum...he pulls me down...

...oh lordy...:(

Its a Monday

2004-11-08T13:24:00.000+08:00

its another big week ahead...
work work work....
Busy busy for the ISO audit... Ü